is it gay
male 23. Iv always fantisiced about girls and love them. but ever since I was 15 ive been obsesed with anal sex. (girls only) but just the other day my best friend (also male) tried putting the moves on me. I turned him down.
but the thought of gayness has been plauging me ever since. So to find out if I have gayness in me I treid checking out other dudes. and usually nothing happends (except the urge to slap myself) but to find out once and for all I watched a gay porn whilst jacking off. and to my horror I ejaculated. I dont know if it was ebecause I found the porno hot. or just because I had been jacking it.
but now some times i notice guys asses and wonder wtf. I could never fall in love with a guy or want to pleasure another male but cant help wonder why am i noticing there asses now.
just wondering if anybody else went through this sh*tty phase. hopefully im not turning gay. any thoughts would be helpful
You are harming your sexual identity with this reluctant experimentation. You are learning to associate sexual gratification with homosexual activities, intentionally or not.
If you jack off to gay porn, you will associate gay porn with jacking off and there may be consequences in the way you view other men.
My advice is that you stop experimenting and worrying. If you feel you have already damaged your sexual identity, try to avoid gay thoughts and DONT jack off while watching gay porn, watch straight porn and jack off.
If you are naturally straight, or if you are sitting on the fence, controlling your thoughts and actions will probably keep you batting for the straight team. Good luck.
There's your answer. You're straight.
u r not gay.
-The Nidaime
Oh, and it's normal for you to associate sex with the anus, because you are male and men are set up to enjoy it with the prostate and whatnot.