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NOTE: The ex would tell everyone he knew about our personal life. He’d even lie.

NOTE: Regarding many situations, this one in particular, I reacted mainly out of fear and loneliness. I actually froze and knew intellectually what to do, but for some reason, couldn’t bring myself to do it. Why?

I know it is normal for people to be assaulted and harassed, but consider someone, a stranger or acquaintance questioning your appearance, disability, intellect and relationship.

For you see, I wanted to go out alone and have something to eat. I called him up because he was available and didn’t seem odd at the time. The weird behavior came out in the cab right as soon as we got on the road. He followed me into the bar and took me to a grease spoon. On the way back to my place, he insulted me and had the audacity to ask me feminine questions not even my boyfriends would dare to ask. He followed me into my building. We talked for hours. It was all very weird as he even told me to stand up and he then picked me up.

I actually called him after he left because I was so lonely, depressed and needed someone to talk to. At the time, I literally had NO ONE to talk to.

Ever since that time and others, I’ve dealt with similar situations. People ask me very personal stuff like the stuff he has and also my contact information, my relationship status, my work status, etc… You name it, it has most likely happened to me. I don’t want sympathy; I just want this BS to stop.

I used to be more assertive and that was such a traumatic experience, it is as if I forgot how. My family does not live here and as a result, I sometimes have to depend on neighbors and strangers which make me uncomfortable.

Example, I was at the doctors with this neighbor and I had to fill in paper work. He read it to me wrote my answers down. Basically, he heard personal information of mine and we are on an acquaintance level. Not only that, he isn’t all there. People like him and others talk freely about sex around me and worse yet, hit on me.

Also, I get groped a lot and most claim they didn’t realize they did it or that it was an accident. This will happen amongst peers, older men and in a crowded situation like camp or something. Most of these folks are blind/visually impaired, older men who are supposed to be mentors who all happen to be acquaintances. Very few are friends who make this mistake.

Is something abnormal about me because of the way I reacted and why does the groping happen so much? I don't dress revealing and I mind my business.