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Okay, I want to know if being submissive is inherited or learned. I obviously enjoyed submissive sexual roles when I was younger and carried it out in other
ways too. For some reason, I enjoyed it when talked down to or commanded to kneel, not just sexually, but regular role play too. It was just a turn on.
It seemed like aggression and sex were connected. For you see, I LOVE RISKS! I’d snap back at those who provoked me and sometimes provoked others just
for fun. I remember I encouraged a fight between a friend of mine and myself. Deep down, I wanted to lose, get beat up and I did. Sound crazy? We’d even
role play, not sexually, but play. I was mostly attracted to roles where I was powerful, then put in my place. For me, this went hand and hand with sexuality.
I am not bi, but find women more attractive than men and find myself fantasizing about dominant women, men or both For some reason, the same fantasy works
every time. I bow down to a dominant man or woman or both, kiss there feet, lick there front or even anus. It seems like that is what does it, provided
they talk down to me using the words and names I prefer, not curse words. Actual sex or typical romance just doesn’t get me there. However, in real life,
I would never fulfill those fantasies because I’d actually prefer the typical romance, but have a hard time accepting it. That baffles me. In school, I’d
moon people sometimes, where skimpy outfits, had one girl sit on my back clothed, and wrestled others. Most of these girls were not popular and I myself
held the middle ground at school, although I felt like a loner. As the years went on, so did my escapades. I never got the most popular guy in school,
thought I wanted him for three years, wanted another for a year and flew from one to another. Did I have my flings? Yes! Did I sample the so called popular
dudes after all? Yes and the flavors were bland! When I was twelve, I received my first kiss from a nineteen year old. He also fingered me in the park
where I had my so called friend use her jacket to sort of hide us. Are those normal ways to experience first encounters such as those? I’ve had fifteen
minute relations, two days, about one week to three, two months, four months give or take and thirteen months. Are those dates, flings, relationships or
nothing? All in all, in our school, “Will you go out with me?” means you are a couple. What do you think and is this normal? NOTE: All this started when
I was eleven and continued as the years went on. The ordeal with my friend happened when I was thirteen. I started getting more dudes as I got older. Please
NOTE: the word relations does not mean that we had sex.