your completly nuts! get over it and get a "main best friend"

I was once like you, but, then my pubicHair filled in. I felt aLot better about very few people wanting to worship me like a crazy person. Fried Shicken Rules!

Not normal, not even healthy. See a shrink.

its spelled medication
I need more comments on this one

I forgot to block my name, damn it to hell. argh

Nobody is anonymous in here anyway Skybird.
Never mind that spelling, Methos has spoken and that's Metho-licious.
No this is not normal Skybird. You are a bit nuts but you will end up completely nuts if you don't get yourself straightened out. Seriously now, you have a lot of issues that really need seeing to. That's good that you keep this envy hidden but it plagues you from within, causing you turmoil most of the time. We can't help you here because you need a professional to help you address your issues but at least recognising them is a start. You are much too into yourself, too worried about what others think or say about you, whether you are smart, are heard, are right and revered. You are left on the sidelines because of this and your vicious circle never ends.
Ask your doctor for a referral for a psychologist a.s.a.p., preferably a woman so you can tell her everything.
Tell your parents you need this badly because you're not coping well at all.

Oh no the other part is revealed! *starts freaking and spazzing out*

That sounds very unhealthy. I'm slightly the same way. Maybe you should talk to a counselor or something. Jealousy is the worst emotion to feel. It's like all the emotions wrapped into one.

Do your friend know about your man hating issues? If so, your friends probably think you're not all there.

Sorry, typos make me cringe!

No one (besides people on this site) knows that I hate men. I just tend to blend in and pretend I don't hate men. It becomes quite difficult after a while. Its like your on a mission to find out information and protect your secrets at the same time.(which I'm becoming quite bad at it lately)And yes I know that this is all not healthy for me or anyone else but its hard for me to ignore my envy. Its screams out to me. Oh and when you said if your friends know they'll think "I'm not all there" What does "all not there" mean? Sorry I'm a bit off with my logic today. By the way I like your cute little hearts on the title areas. :)

I guess "not all there" wasn't the best way to put it. I just meant that they'd probably react to your opinions the same way most of the people on here have.

I see.....

Thirteen is a very unlucky number,that's why I just had to be the fourteenth commenter.In my opinion,I don't think that it's a big deal.Except for the headaches and nightmears,that's just weird.Yes,envy is not a good thing.If you look at every bad thing you could do,envy doesn't have a "plus side" to it.For example,gluttony has its perks,because you can indulge yourself in food all day.Which may make you happy.So does slothfulness,because you cannot have a care in the world.Lust,and even wrath has its fun sides.But jealousy is the WORSE feeling in the world.There's nothing fun or good about being envious of anybody or anything.Being envious sucks.Sometimes you can't control it though.It's really depressing when someone is better than you at something or has something that you desire or want...Just make sure that you don't take it to the extreme.It can get dangerous that way.Try to "count your blessings".Even if you don't think you have that much.Or you can do what the above commenters are saying,to just get help and talk to someone.

First of all, you should know that absolutely no one – not your friends, not your mother, nobody, can know your thoughts - unless you choose to communicate them.

It is normal to sometimes be insecure about yourself, but it is not healthy to allow your fears to motivate your actions (such as hanging around to make sure no one will gossip about you) or paralyze you from forming new friendships, or strengthening existing ones. The headaches and nightmares you suffer from are probably caused by extreme anxiety, which can be controlled as you gain self-confidence.

You can be a best friend to someone easily, but you must develop confidence in yourself. This is something you will have to work at. After all, if you have self respect and confidence, its easier to command respect from others. You know that you want people to like you. Realize that this is a UNIVERSAL NEED. Your friends are no different. They also have the same needs, insecurities and hang-ups that are common to everybody. Present yourself as confident & friendly and they’ll be friendly too (if not slightly intimidated by *you*).

Be sincere. Don't use flattery ... you have to find something you truly like about a person before you open your mouth. Take note of some feature about him or her that you like (maybe her hair) Strike up a conversation (use your imagination). Then, point-blank: make a compliment & ask a question about whatever it is you found impressive at the same time. This is a double-pronged ego-stroke. The compliment is actually expressing your approval and the question is actually a statement telling him or her that you feel their opinion is important.

Be friendly and have no fear. Remember, they dont know you are anxious about meeting, or getting to know them. On the inside, they very much want to be liked & respected too, just like you do. And nobody is ever sure how the next guy is gonna see them.

Build trust: Trust takes time to build. Rather than see them as a short-term acquaintance, see them as a long-term potential best friend that you would like to build into a close, lasting friendship. The great thing about this posturing is that you can build just as many of these friendships at a time as you want.

Keep the tone as friendly as you can without seeming like a pushover. People feel good in the company of others who have a sense of self-esteem. Think about it. If you don't tolerate foolishness, but they are your friends, then they get the message that you don't consider them fools.

Once you have established a conversation, there are some basics you need to keep in mind. First, the other guy’s opinions matter to you. Don't debate; ... Ask questions. Also realize that you may need to see the person several times before you and they begin to feel more at ease with one another. Remember, to them, they are trying to make a good impression too & there will be some tension ... it's natural. Be friendly & appreciative of them. If you have friends nearby, introduce them & make some comment that will establish them as an important person in their minds & that they will know that you respect them. Over time, you can invite them to hang out, party & chill. Show interest in them. That's not difficult...because most people are interesting.

Be yourself, relax, and the rest will fall into place.

Good luck!

well yeah i would understand about the whole jelous of your friends, best friend cuz sometimes when that happens i feel left out but getting headaches over it? jeeze....