I hate my dad too. im the one who posted "my sperm donor hates me". hes not really a sperm donor. but he treated me like s*** forever. i have no feelings towards him other than hate and sadness for HIM. so hes basically like a sperm doner. i have never known whats its like to have a dad in my life. a normal dad. Im really sorry to hear you have one of those dads.

Your dad is a asshole he should be building you up not tearing you down,I know its hard but ignore don't let your dad break your spirit.Hang in there good thangs will come.

Thank you for both of your support, I wish I could comply, but it's simply not simple, you know? It's like I'm going out of my mind with grief, because he's like a dark little cloud hanging over my head on a constant daily basis, it's wear-and-tear over and over...

I certainly hope good will come, but I'm a bit of a realistic cynic, and sometimes the good is too late.

I just got done looking at your profile you are 18 years old,if i were you i would get the hell out on my own.I can tell by the way you post you are a strong person and can handle a little adversity.Get over this don't let him destroy your life your too young and have to much to look forward to.You are your own boss make it happen!

I really wish I could, but it's going to be a bit shakey, I'm actually planning on going soon, really am.

I forgot to thank you for compliment Gizzie56, but I assure you, I'm not fairly strong. I've gotten into physical fights and got black eye(s), and yelling/screaming at each other, we're just not compatible, but I can't kill him, because I decided I didn't want to ruin my life for that dirtbag...

I'm hoping one of my other friends is able to help momentarily.

oompa loompa

Are you saying you have gotten into physical fights with your dad?Because if he even puts so much as a red mark on you that's domestic violence and he can be arrested and jailed.

Kinda too late for that now, and I was too afraid to act on because he's trained to kill (military) and he's made some threats that I know he'll keep his word on. He's a man of his word, no matter who you are, or what you are.

Stuck situation, my only logical choices would be, suicide, kill him or move out A.S.A.P.

I'm too young to throw my life away and I worked so hard not to, avoiding drugs, getting drunk, having sex (yeah that can lead to a problem at some point), going into the wrong crowd, etc.

How do I put this? When you go through the military, you've been trained to kill someone in the most effective, fast and simplist of ways. If he should snap, I don't have a prayer. I wouldn't have known I'd died.

He's never went that far, ever, but he's given me the notion and I take it seriously, literally.

i agree with gizzie. no wonder you grind your teeth too. you have a lot of stress. here i am complaining about my dad. and hes just a worthless Pu***. you have it a lot worse. i am so sorry!! please feel free to email me anytime!! if you want to vent or just need answers. i used to work in law enforcement. i dealt with lots of abused kids. sarasso@yahoo.com