Birthday blues
Is it normal to dread your birthday? Mine is coming up and I think of all the effort me and other people have gone to to celebrate other peoples birthdays and how I've been to parties and like 50 people turn up. Then I compare that to what usually happens on mine, which is usually f*ck all, at best having drinks with 2-3 friends. If I ask people to come celebrate with me they always have a reason why they can't come, and yet I always make an effort to go to other peoples birthdays, even if they're not a great friend of mine. It p*sses me off that I haven't had a big fuss made of me since my parents used to throw me parties when I was a kid. I expect I'll just sit around feeling depressed as usual...
To tell you the truth, I wouldnt make it a point to go to other people's b-day parties. Why waste all the time and effort going to theres if a lot of people dont show up at yours. It is always good to have a small group of close friends that come to your b-day party. Thats all you really need, its just another year in my view. So next time, I wouldn't make a big deal about it, don't worry!
I stopped celebrating my birthday as far as parties go when I reached my teens. From then on, it was just my girlfriend and myself on our birthdays. As you get older, it is typical for most people to just spend a birthday with one or two friends at most and little more.
Lower your expectations and plan something you like to do on your birthday and you will not feel gloomy when the day arrives. Life in general isn't fair so don't compare yourself to others.
By the way HAPPY B-DAY!!