I pretty much hate my life right now
ok so before you say I'm some little freak that just needs to go die or somthing, I hate my life beause for the past couple months now I've had a family member in the hospital. It started with my Aunt who had twins... she didn't know she was having twins until she went into labor. Afterwards she got sick and had dangerously low iron in her blood and had to stay in the hospital for a few weeks. Two days before my aunt came home, My grandma fell down her basement stairs which are solid cement and afterwards she had pockets of blood built up on her brain and couldn't remember just about anything and couldn't talk real well and couldn't walk, she broke her pelvis and her face was covered in scars and blood. We weren't sure if she was going to make it or not. After about 3 weeks she came home and was put on oxygen, given a walker, and given a bunch of medication. But altogeather she ended up making it through everything. However a week after my grandpa went into the hospital. He's been back and forth between there and the nursing home for about a month and a half now. He's tried to leave the hospital several times, almost broke a nurses arm, has talked about suiside, asked people to just kill him and get it over with. He has been diagnosed with Leukemia or cancer of the blood. He also has Pneumonia which is where your lungs and respiratory system is flooded with fluids. Today his doctor called and told us he could die anywhere between the next couple of hours and the next couple of days. I know death is part of life and I know this whole "story" really won't matter to anybody but I needed to get this out cuz its been really hard to deal with so if you read took the time to read this and acctually understand how I feel right now... I could use some pointers on how to deal with it all.
The exercise helps mood swings and causes your brain to release chemicals that will relax your body and mind.
Group counseling is also very effective as a coping strategy. Most group counseling sessions are free and people get a chance to share their experiences. Seeing others who are in similar situations will help you feel less isolated and lonely. Look into support groups for those who have lost loved ones or are currently grieving some loss. Group counseling sessions may be once a week over a period of a couple months. Support groups are out there if you search for them. Good luck.
When I had a rough year a few years back (when I was 19) when suicides, divorces, financial problems like gambling debts I had no idea about, and illness wrecked my immediate family. devastated it. I picked ONE object, in my case, a stuffed dragon, and when I felt anxious I held on to it and thought to myself "if EVERYONE dies tomorrow, If I loose everything, I will still have this." Because it is easier to be calm when your focus is on ONE thing. It makes it easier to let go when people die, and when new problems arise. Its like tricking your mind into having the highest priority of caring be on something YOU CAN control.
Anyway, I hope things get better, but even if they don't, I hope you are ok.
*switches back to troll mode*
but that made me laugh lol