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I am really really depressed. Alot of things have happened and i'm seriously considering suiside. First, my mother got married to someone who lives in another town about 3 hours from where we live. After they got married I was forced to move there and leave all of my friends behind. Since they have gotton married her top priority is her husband. She rarley ever pays attention to me and when i have a problem that want to talk to her about she just tells me to get over it and then goes comforts her husband on his problems. I really really hate my mother. If someone said give me all of your money or I'll kill your mom, I'd just say "go ahead." I may want to live with ym dad but there it would be worse. He's really strict and my step mother treats me worse than my mom.

Another thing my mom has done is dealing with my birthday. She knew that i was very upset about the move so she promised me a really nice birthday party. I called her up yesterday and said i need to get some things for the party and she flat out told me no that didn't have any money to spend (since she used all of her money of a wedding that wasn't that great) on my party. So i'm not gonna get a nice party after all.

I am starting high school this year and when it came to registering me, it was last on my moms list its the end on july and my mom FINALLY sent out a transfer to go to a school thats closer, which will take about two weeks and then i can finally register. By then i am 100% percent sure i am not going to be able to get any classes or electives that I want, and my mom doesn't care. She's like well whatever oyu get you can be happy with it and this whole thing is HER fault because she procrastinated on registering me.

My boyfriend broke up with me about 2 weeks ago. I had convinced myself that I loved him and did anything he wanted me to do. I probally would have had sex with him if he asked me to. But then he finds out that one of my friends is in love with him so he dumps me to be with her. I wish i could see him and i miss him so much and even though all of my friends tell me hes a loser and to let it go i just can't.

My friends are being really mean to me also. I try to talk to my best friend about my problems, but everytime I try to she tells me to get over it and yells at me. She just resently called me a follower and told me to do my own thing instead of copying everyone else. She doesn't realize that i'm about to kill myself and so she just keeps being mean to me.

And on top of all this I'm overweight and ugly. Everytime I try to lose weight I jsut give up. I'm thinking of jsut being bulemic or something. If it hurts my body who cares, i want to die anyway.

I know that my life could probally be worse and you probally think i'm just being too whiny but i serioulsy need help or I might do something i regret.