So confused
I am so confused... I was really really close to my dad, and he committed suicide. I started watching a television show where the lead guy looks like him, and sometimes says things like he did. It was ok, until I started fantasizing about him sexually.
I never thought about my dad that way, but now everything is getting jumbled up and I don't know what to do... My memories are getting cloudy and I can feel reality kind of slipping away. I don't want to tarnish my dad's memory and what we had... I am just so confused. Help. Please be nice guys :(