SUMMARY OF MY LIFE STORY
I AM NOW 28 YEARS OLD AND I WANT TO TELL MY REAL STORY.WHEN I WAS IN THE HOUSE OF MY FAMILY MY MOM FORCE ME TO WASH THE DIRTY DISH AFTER EACH MEAL.SHE ALSO USED ME TO CLEAN THE HOUSE,I WAS LIKE A SERVANT WHILE SHE WOULDN'T BEHAVE WITH MY BROTHERS LIKE ME.SHE WAS TORTURING ME BY PUTTING HOT CHILI IN MY MOUTH OR AGITATING MY DAD TO BEAT ME HARD,MY DAD WOULD USE HIS LEATHER BELT TO WHIP ME AND MY WHOLE BODY WOULD BECOME RED.TWO TIMES HE BROKE MY HEAD WITH HIS BELT METALIC CROOK.ONCE MORNING MY DAD PUSHED MY HEAD FORWARD THE TOILET WHOLE BECAUSE IN THE EARLY MORNING HE FORCED ME TO BUY BREAD FOR BREAKFAST WHILE I WAS IN BED AND REFUSED TO DO THAT.ONCE MY MOM AND DAD TIED UP MY HANDS AND FEET WITH A ROPE AND LEFT ME IN THE ROOF IN SUMMER TIME.MY DAD DID NOT CARE ABOUT ME,WHEN I FOUND A JOB MY MOM ASK MY WHOLE EARNED MONEY,SHE JUST LIKE MONEY SO MUCH,WHILE AFTER I MET A GIRL AND WE BECAME FRIEND,BUT MY MOM WAS AGAINST HER OR ANY OTHER GFS,SO SHE TRIED TO CUT OUR RELATIONSHIP WHEN SHE FOUND OUT THAT I DECIDED TO GET MARRIED WITH MY GF.IN FACT FOR SCAPING FROM THAT f**kING HOUSE I WANTED TO GET MARRIED.MY GF WAS NOT BEAUTIFUL SHE IS 20 CM SHORTER THAN ME BUT SHE DECLARED THAT SHE LOVES ME.I GOT MARRIED WITH HER BUT MY FAMILY DIDNT ATTEND IN MY WEDDING CEREMONY,THEN MY FAMILY DID CUT OFF THEIR RELATIONSHIP WITH ME,MY MOM SAID THAT I SHOULD DIVORCE MY WIFE.I HAD A VERY DIFFICULT TIME AND NEVER GOT CHANCE TO BE SUCCESFUL IN MY LIFE OR BECOME RICH.MY MOM IS CAUSE OF LOSING MY FIRST LOVE THAT I LOVED HER SO MUCH.I DONT KNOW WAT I HAVE TO DO???I AM A REAL LOSER WHILE MY FAT MUMY IS THE WINNER.SHE IS A REAL b*s***d,IF ONCE U VISIT HER NEVER BELIEVE ME BECAUSE U THINK THAT SHE IS SO KIND AND NEVER LOOKS LIKE A BAD MOTHER.THAT WAS MY FAULT THAT I DID EVERYTHING FOR THEM AND DIDNT CARE ABOUT MYSELF,I AM A LOSER BECAUSE I WAS AFRAID TO BE ALONE OR HAVING AN INDEPENDENT LIFE,5 YEARS HAS PASSED AFTER MY MARRIEGE AND I AM ALONE BUT THINKING I SHOULD CONTINUE THIS BATTLE.
I'm puzzled by some of what you say in relation to being "tortured." Being required to wash dishes and clean the house seems like normal responsibilities a kid might have while growing up -- the other things you mention seem rather vague and difficult to define (being required to eat chili, having your head pushed towards the toilet bowl, etc.) While your parents don't sound like the kindest of folks, you don't have to remain meek around them or anyone else. You're an adult now, and have been for some time.
Being alone is tough, but being with people who don't value your self-esteem is a lot tougher. Get a roommate if you must; you'll save money that way as well. As for love, most people seem to think that romance is necessary for a good life; I think that a good life is necessary before romance can enter your life. Nobody can complete you -- that's something that you have to do for yourself.