Getting around
I hangout with a group of guys around my age, every weekend we go to parties and get drunk. I feel happy around them, but the thing is I sleep with a few of them and the just pass me around like a toy, but I get off on that I don't know why but I like it, I act stupid so I they don't think I understand whats going on and they pretend like they don't know I've been with a particular guy, even though I've heard them talking about it. Is this normal !?!
Its not that you like it. it is a sense of love that your lacking, sex and love are different. but can be interpreted as the same.
Get away from that situation its dangerous
As long as you don't do it in the street and scare the horses, it's fine by me.