In love with my best friend...
K, so I'm 13 years old and gay. Women turn me on, but not as much as other guys, especially guys around my age. Currently, I'm in love with my best friend Zack. It's funny cause he thinks noone likes him cause he thinks he's too "geeky", but he's a really cute guy. I'm confused, because I don't think he's gay, but I've noticed some strange signs which could point to it. I don't want to ruin our friendship by telling him, but if there could be any chance he's gay too, I don't want to miss out on a great guy. What should I do?
just keep looking for signs dude, you might scare him if you right out drop a bomb like that on him.
peace JAH bless
Poster....I am and always have been "homo" and I know how you feel. I went through the same thing at your age. I fell in love with my best friend.
Even though he seemed to be straight and had a girlfriend whom he was supposedly quite "active" with, I never quite gave up.
Then one summer weekend I went camping with him and his family. We had smuggled a bottle of cheap wine with us and a couple of beers. Oh fuck....typing this is bringing it back big time.
We waited until late to drink some of the booze, snuck out of the campsite to wander around for a bit and came back feeling pretty good. We got into our sleeping bags. As I said my buddy had a girlfriend and he commented on how he had wished she was there to give him a blow job. The moment felt right and I commented that I could help him out with that. He seemed a little surprised but also interested.
The next thing I knew, his sleeping bag was opened , his pants were down and I was a few inches from his dick. Suddenly he freaked a bit and backed out. He wanted it but couldn't handle the thought of me doing that for him I guess. It hurt a lot.
Nothing was the same after that. He treated me differently and we very quickly grew apart. He was no longer my friend.
I wish I had an answer for you. It's an awkward age and even more tough if you're gay.
Be the best friend that you can be. Understand that you are very young and often many of the friends that you have now in the years to come will drift apart anyways. A handful will hold on. Maybe with this one will still be around for you. Maybe not.
Look for signs. Be careful. If he is REALLY your friend, it won't matter to him if you are gay or not. Maybe someday you can tell him. Be prepared for what ever consequences come about for telling him though.
i was 12 ok and i was extremaly confused abut *sex* so.... i asked my friend to come over for a sleep over and then my mom went to bed i asked him about stuff about our day then i commented i got a boner....(dont know how to spell*then i asked could u give me a blow job?he said ehh..u gay?i said no!!! i said i just wanna *practice*and he said okay..... so listen dude its okay that ur feelings this just dont worrey but (hint) dont go what i went through!!!!!!