I dont know if my girlfriend is trying to end us
I am in a long distance relationship and it is really taking its toll on me. We've been arguing for some time over my insecurities. I became insecure because I learned after feeling I knew her, that she keeps almost everything inside and she was hiding something I felt she really should have mentioned.
Our aruments led me to her telling me, 'I guess that I was unsure about how you felt, so I decided to shop around' and all at the same time as telling me she loved me. She told me her reasons for believing I didn't love her as much as I said was because I didnt always like public displays of affection and I didnt feel like kissing because I really did have a headache.
Correct me if I am wrong but wouldnt most people in my girlfriends position react by asking their boyfriends do you really love me and looking for reassurance only in their boyfriend. I set her up with a fake guy on myspace and she in my eyes showed me hands down she didnt know if I was the one for her like she was telling me all along I was.
She told me I got it all wrong and that she does love me. One year on we are still arguing because I still am not sure about how she feels and constantly feel she is still holding things inside. She doesnt want to talk about sex, tells me I call her too much, always seems to want to do anything else but talk to me, etc. I've asked her 100 times do you want to break up, she tells me no. I'm still not sure, I want to talk nicly to clear things up, but she never does.
I have reached boiling point. I'm in love with a women who I am willing to move to live with in her country and put my ambitions on hold in order to do that. I told her this today. You are making me feel like you want me to quit and leave but you can't tell me straight up. Then I asked 'if you really love me does it bother you that I feel this way, does it upset you at all'. Her answer was another puzzler. She said 'I don't know', I should get this women a t-shirt with those words on it, she cant open up to me. If you were in my situation and asked the same thing to the person you loved, who says they love you too, what would you think to the answer 'I dont know'. Would it not upset you to find that the person you love feels that you dont really love them and that you make them feel like you are trying to make them leave, when you are not. I dont know who my girlfriend is, but I fear the worst, she just goes on telling me I am a fool. I just think she doesnt know how to end it. Maybe I am right or maybe I am completly wrong. What do you think?
Repost a Reader's Digest version of this and we'll give it another go. I hate to offer advice to someone when I don't even know what the problem(s) is/are.
Sry m8 but the female/male dictionary never lies.
Nor should you strap yourself or put your life on "hold" for someone who cant make up there mind, and her ship (imo) has long since left and sho should you.
peace JAH bless
-dirt dobbler