loneliness.. :'(

I'm hoping you won't get the usual round of "fuck off, loser" or "jump in front of a train for all I care"-type responses. But just in case, you've been forewarned.

I experienced many of the same feelings you describe here at your age -- the only thing that really rescued me was my love of music. I was active in my school orchestra and was able to command a little respect from my peers for my talent.

What do you mean by "someone special?" If you don't have a girlfriend and feel deprived, perhaps you need to redefine the meaning of "someone special". If you have family who love and care for you, and/or even one friend who cherishes your company, you are far better off than many.

The need for a girlfriend can be overpowering at your age, but remember that there will probably be many times in your life when you will be on your own. Young love being what it is, kids are apt to move in and out of relationships even dozens of times before they find someone they think they can settle with for the long haul.

Intimacy can be tough work; it's not all good times and physical closeness. As long as the depression seems to be a major factor in your life, the high associated with a new love will only mask your symptoms temporarily. This is something that needs advice and treatment that you absolutely cannot get here. Please explore these options with a school counselor or other trusted adult. And good luck to you.

your a loser you always will be, your only option is to kill yourself, i recommend shooting yourself in the head, do it right in the temple that should get the job done, if you don't have access to a gun, then go to the store down 3 bottles of tylenol pm it won't kill you at first but it should damage your liver, which will kill you 2 weeks later, it's your suicide have fun with it

i dont know what to say relli, i used to cu mi self aswell and thats how i came anorexic and some other reasons i used to get bullied and didnt want to do anythin and wished i was dead but untill i told someone it helped councilar i know it sounds scary but it does help.
and u will find someone out there for u i promice
xx 3>

Damn, flikr. What if this kid is 100% genuine? If your comments were meant to be funny, it's a bit over the top if the lad just wanted a sympathetic ear/eye.

What do you expect from an asshole who doesn't even bother to fill in his profile?

Why would you say such a thing? Do you never stop to consider that some of these kids might be serious when they post these stories? Damn; how cold...

Your feelings of suicide and acts self mutilation are most likely as a result of anger towards someone else, or many other people, that you have not been able to express so it turns inwards and you end up having these thoughts.

If you could talk to someone...to find out where these thoughts are coming from you maybe able to get over them and move on in life.

The feelings of loneliness are tough, yet I do not think that someone else can fill the void that you have inside, once you learn to love and accept yourself then others will also and they will want to be with you.

well, most ppl dont have the balls to do it.... so go see a therapist.

most, but not all of my friend are in love, it bothers me but dont cut yourself, for fuck sakes, besides its overated and a cry for attention

Okay, for the most part, I understand the feelings you have, i can concur with you. But seriously, you are only 13(like you said).

If you want someone special, you have to work for it. Tlak to someone, stop being shy. Work on that self esteem somehow.(Join a sport? Do something ur good at in public?)

I"m only 15, and i've only had one partner so far, im doing fine. I dont know much about you, but if i did. I would help.

Just seriously dont let me hear more about the suicide crap, i really give a damn how depressed ANYONE is, suicide is the cowards way out of problems of their own. And you don't even have any problems.