I dont remember, was it rape

I'm 14, and was 14 then. My close friends had left for her new school. I was alone and had no one to hang out with, over the year a group of older kids 15-17 had been trying to get my attention at lunchtimes and during class. they where what you call the popular kids at school. Always ditching class when they wanted, not showing up 4 school, back talking to teachers, getting detention. those sort of things. thing people said about the where sort of bad, like they do drugs, have sex ect. I was by myself when school let out, a group of them came up to me, started asking questions, but mostely just talking like I was one of them. the next day we meet up in the morning, some how convised me to ditch school with them. I did, and I actully had a great time. More than I had in ages. The guyz were always flirting with me, sometimes getting more physical than I wanted but was too scared to tell them to back off. A few nights later i went to a party with them. One of the much older guyz asked me to sit on his lap, I did as I was told. He offered me a drink, and I drank it. One after another he gave them too me. when I said no, he shoved his hand up my top, said they where the biggest he'd seen in a while. I wanted him to stop so i took that one as well.I dont rember what happened next but.......when I woke up, I didnt have any clothes on. there were three of them or four, i dont know. lieing all over me. there was blood on the sheets, and between my legs. I got off the bed, found my clothes on a chair. As a was leaving one of them grabbed my arm, pulled me to him. Said had I enjoyed it. He started feeling me and kissing me down my neck.....I dont know how I did it but all of a sudden I was stronger than him, pushed him away. I ran out. I dont know what to do. I was drunk. Thats a normal thing to happen when your drunk. No one will belive me and even if they did isent there something that says if you intoxicated it dosent count as an involentery act?

Do you think it's normal?

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