Am I bicurious? Or just horny?

..regretfully I must type this story for the population to mingle within it and conjure up mad comments about, or the helpful people who will actually guide me through my feelings... but I have `a friend.. whom I've befriended since birth.. when we were young, he claimed to be gay, and tried to do things to me, of course I was ignorant about the situation.. but I felt comfortable with him just him being my friend.. well, I finally gave in to his demands, and we were about 10 years old, and he's grown up in a family that is strong on sexuality, and he gave me a blowjob.. that was a long time ago, and I regret ever letting it happen.. but he was a tiny fellow back then.. not physically.. arousingly small.. but he got bigger, almost as bis as me.. but it's so nice.. makes me aroused thinking about it.. and as time progressed, I got into girls and such, dating, having sex with girls my age and whatnot, but every time he was near, or spending the night at my house... I always got extremely horny.. and I just wanted to suck his dick dry.. I have dreams about it occassionally.. me, him and my other friend used to do stuff together, me and him would jack each other off, while my other friend sat and watched.. and then we'd shower together, with no sexual encounter, but one day I wanted to shove my penis into his anus.. he allowed me to.. I didn't f**k him, but I stuck it almost in, and then said "No, this doesn't feel right.".. and on occassion, when he stays the night, in his sleep, being he's a deep sleeper, and people in general are easily aroused in their sleep, I always like jacking and sucking him off.. ever so slowly not to wake him, because I don't want him to know that I feel this way anymore, because years have passed and nothing has happend between the two of us like that.. but my question is.. am I bicurious or just horny? or is it maybe that I have some odd, childhood prone comfort with mine and his nudity and sexuality? I wouldn't mind grabbing his c*ck and jacking the hell out of it in mymouth, but to my other friend, I won't even let him touch me in my leg area... any constructive feedback? And they're will be evil,cold hearted people posting to this, soo.. you're comments will not be taken seriously by me, I'm seeking help,not cruelty.

Do you think it's normal?

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