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To be honest, I really have started to think I was shallow for a few years.

When I got out of school and started working my first job at 18, it all started when I started to look for a nice girlfriend. But......what I wanted is that I wanted to see perfect people, including myself. I wanted my girlfriend to be tall, have long blond hair, blue eyes, huge breasts, perfect teeth, so on and so on. I also wanted to be the perfect man. A 6 pack going, tall, dark skinned, attractive, everything.

This is what I wanted to see in women (and myself) to see a sexy relationship. The only problem is, I myself did not have some of these traits, neither did the women I've met. This caused me to shy away from a lot of relationships in my life. I am 22 years old and have never had a girlfriend.

Sometimes I wish I could have a lab with a capsule down there. There, I would create the most beautiful woman in existence. The ultimate beautiful sexy life-form. A woman that was so damn hot, it would almost kill you to even look at her. This is what I wanted to do, have the perfect woman, and me being the perfect man.

I spent years researching this, only to find simple ways on how to improve a person, but not change them. And since we can only do this, we cant have perfect people.

I think one thing I learned in life is that, I don't think our Father in heaven wanted all of his children to look the same. I believe everyone was created differently for a reason. Therefore, the perfect woman doesn't exist. I believe that only a woman's personality can truly make me fall in love with her, and not her looks.

For so many years I have been heartbroken. My true emotions was calling out for a woman's personality, while my brain kept going for the looks. Due to this, there was a clash in emotions, and I ended up being stiff and stable, not associating with people.

Oh well, I guess we cant have everything in life can we? I think I was shallow for thinking like this, but I am changing my ways.