do the sisterly thing and batter her melt in

It sounds like you're being abused very badly by your family and, no, it's not normal for anyone to have to put up with this kind of abuse. Don't hurt yourself - and avoid hurting them. Asserting yourself doesn't mean lashing out in anger (although you have every right to be angry right now) it just means that you refuse to be pushed around and stand firm.

My immediate reaction, reading your post, was that you needed to get out of this house immediately but it sounds like you have no other family to stay with.

If this is true your best immediate recourse is to make yourself stronger and build yourself up from within so that you can assert yourself to your sister. If you present yourself as a strong person with a will of your own she will realize she cannot manipulate you anymore. You can re-assure your mother that your going out in the world doesn't mean you don't love her or she will "lose you". You will always come back to her as long as she needs you.

You will have to find a way to educate yourself and make a life for yourself. Even if it just means working towards having a job and paying rent for a room in your mother's house. Once you pay your own way in her house or someplace else they can't blackmail you with guilt-trips about you being a burden.

Make use of every moment of freedom you have - every opportunity to get a book from the library or read things on line to help build yourself up.

Louise Hay is a good author to read for women who are trying to fight for self esteem. Try to work out to make yourself physically stronger, practice do chin-ups and sit-ups someplace where no one can see you. Then if your sister tries to hit you - you sock her one right back!!!

You are in a very abusive situation, and although it may be very hard to get out of, it is possible. There are programs to help people in your situation and places that you can go. They can help you get a job and a place of your own. Look in the phonebook, make some calls and with some persistance, you should be able to find someone to help you. It also might be possible to get a personal protection order on your sister if she threatens to hurt you for not moving. What she is doing is illegal and she can't force you to do anything. Please don't kill yourself. There are a lot of great things about life that you still need to experiance. Just get away from your rotten sister and everything will get better. Then she can clean the house her own damn self!

go fuck yourself you emo basttard

Search your garage for a chainsaw or other equipment and take the problem into your own hands.

You punch her in the face. You yell at her. You lay down the law. If you're thinking about killing yourself anyway you've got nothing to loose. Get a large object. Don't hit her with it, but have it nearby just incase. You lay down the law. You TELL her that you're moving out. You tell her exactly waht you told us. If fact, before you do, get all your clothes ready.

No, better yet;
A) Arange a place to stay (a nearby hotel, perhapse
b) Pack your clothes
C) get a taxi
Get the hell out of there
D) Leave a note with all the stuff you said, including the suicide thoughts, and threaten to beat the crap out of her if she follows you.

Here's plan C;

This is for absolute emergencies, and I don't actually recomend this, but this is only for if you don't think anything else will work;

Beat yourself up and tell the police she did it. They should protect you. Pissibly.