Have you ever wondered what the difference between living and dead is... how can I live, and die... what makes me living, what leaves so i am dead? why is it ok to hug a live person, but gross to hug a dead person.
i am depressed... i saw a doctor... but i cant afford the medication, I dont want it anyways. I have been depressed every winter for the last twelve years.
I have attempted suicide five times... and would have succeeded if it wasnt for roomates, or friends coming in my apartment. when i arrive at the hospital... the doctors are amazed i'm still alive, let alone awake.
This year I have it.... the empire state building.... or i have to shoot myself in the head.... it has to be quick, so no one can f**k it up for me.
Im an adult, and I just needed a place to vent, that wasnt someone i knew... they would f**k up my chance to see what's on the other side of life.
peace
In the whole vast configuration of things we are nothing but scurvey little spiders.
YES, I do watch christmas movies
Butters--RESPECT MY AUTHORITAH!!!
And by the way, the word "anyways" gives me a fairly good clue as to who you might be. Nice try. Good topic, though.
Lately, I've been converted to the belief that those who are absolutely forthright in their pursuit towards self-destruction should be allowed to do as they please. I find it incredibly selfish and cruel when these folks fail to give their families and other loved ones any hint as to why they left, however, as the tendency for those left behind is to blame themselves. But I think that's often the whole point, isn't it? Suicide can be the ultimate, final act of passive aggression. And for that reason, it must be done with some degree of respect for the living who must cope with the mess that is left behind.
So, poster, leave if you must, but DAMNED WELL leave some dignity for the people who loved you as well. You may not owe the world your life, but you DO owe your loved ones a final goodbye and some degree of closure. Please give that some thought before you turn towards the other side. And don't count on it being any better "over there" than it is here, either.
You can beat depression so do whatever it takes to get over this,and whatever you do DONT kill yourself!!!!
Also, to the original poster, if you're only sad/depressed/increased with suicidal thoughts during winter, perhaps you have some form of seasonal SAD depression and may deal with that in some ways.