always the same
I've been wanking thinking about the same guy for nearly 5 years, I know him since high school and he's very ambiguous, he's probably bisexuel but I've never managed to put it in my bed, even if I've been working for that, the mystery around his body makes that I come back to him nearly all the time. I just want to sleep with him, I'm not even in love, it's just to do it AT LEAST ONE TIME, am I a freak?
In my experience, guys tend to fall in love and stay in love longer and easier than girls.
I don't think you're a freak, but I do think it's a little unhealthy for you to focus on sleeping with him so much. Why don't you focus on just becoming friends with him for now?
he aint done anything to ya!!