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(part one of two)
I've been with my boyfriend for about 2 years, and we've had the best relationship imaginable. we are extremely in love with each other and have always had an amazing sex life.
he was molested and raped by his biological father when he was 4 years old. his mother gave up rights to him when he was 5 or 6 and he was adopted by another family at age 8.
He's never told anyone but me, but he has a problem with looking at gay porn. i knew he was looking at porn one time, but i didn't know it was gay porn, so i was upset because i didn't understand why i wasn't giving him everything he needed (im hot, very generous, and open-minded). he felt bad that i thought that, bc it wasnt true, and told me it was gay porn. he almost lost his mind when he was told me,but felt so happy he could and i was still there. he doesn't understand why it turns him on. he has never been even remotely attracted to another man, and does not want to have sex with a man or even do anything sexual. He secretly met with a guy when he was 18 (25 now) and was given oral sex by him, couldn't come, and was so disgusted that he attempted suicide. he knows he isn't gay or bi.
i think it makes sense to me pyschologically, he was raped and violated by a man, and at such a young age he had no idea what sex even was. His dad said it was "sword fighting" and that jesus loves boys who let their daddies do that. I want to kill this man. (see part 2)