Thinking about suicide
hmm lets see here it was last week yes the week of the 25th or something and as i recall i had been saving up this one good sh*t all the past week
i walked into the dimly lit bathroom and closed the door with a loud CRACK emitting from the creaking wood.
i waddled quickly over to the toilet, squeezing my cheeks trying not to let any of the stuff to come out.
finally, with some difficulty i had completely liberated myself of my pants and underwear
i had waited for this moment for days almost 2 weeks!!
i sat my lard ass down on the cold yellow seat and relaxed for a moment
i whispered, " it's time " and grabbed on to the blue shower curtain and the cold marble counter top and began pushing
IT HURT LIKE CHUCKIE CHEESE WAS COMING OUT OF MY ANAL PASSAGEWAY!!!!
it wouldn't come it was as though a was having a baby out of my anus
i sat there for at least an hour sweating, before i finally decided my anus was stretched enough and i grabbed the tweezers
i picked up the shiny instrument and reached under my sweaty sack
the tweezers felt cold against my a**hole i started breaking up the sh*t
nothing was working
i gave it one last push and finally !!!!
with a lot of blood and a huge splatter making the bathroom floor wet my load was set free!
i then stood up and flushed the toilet as i pushed down on the lever i prayed to any god that this massive dump would go down the drain
however....
it did not
i then only did what i thought was natural thing to do
i grabbed a hand towel and picked up my huge stinky bowel gently placing it on my scale
11 POUNDS
" holy sh*t!" i said exhausted from my workout
i broke it up into small 1 pount peices and ran the bathtub this worked
i watched with a tear as the last bits of my massive load traveled down the bathtub
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i now have no control of my bowels
whenever i have to sh*t i just sh*t i cant hold it in
its like anal leakage but in gushes and sometimes theres bl00d ITS AWFUL so i buy
Depends ADULT diapers
someone
please please tell me what to do and please i plead with you tell me
is this normal
or isnt it?