i don't feel ok with the idea of working
Well... as the title say, I don't feel confortable with the idea of working, cause I always feel like i'm another monkey on the big wheel of society and I want to kick all people involved in that (workmates and clients). I have tried several jobs, and all them are different, and one of two of them are jobs I thought I will like cause are involved in fields that I'm supposed to love.
So, when I have been working during one or two weeks, I start to make things like arriving stoned at the workplace, or without sleeping, not going and say that I'm feeling bad, I use to steal things and lie to my boss, saying things like i'm working on that
And I always feel bad about betraying my principles but i really need the money. I don't feel bad about the idea of not working well. And the fact of not being fired cause the apparent good working or skilling makes me feel more and more bad. It's like society is a nosense piece of shit.
I think it's normal to be like that when u re 50 and u re tired of working, but im 20.
So i'm asking if all this is normal. I think that it is, but I know lot of people that is happy about working, so... is it normal?
Why don't commit a crime and go to prison where you will be raped in the ass by a man larger and more rugged than any man you will possibly meet at 'work' 24/7 as that is what you really want isn't it?