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Im 18 ive never had a gf and never been kissed. Thing is I dont care. I think alot about things and sometimes I find what I think kind of new, because I dont hear other people talking about it. Not anything sexual, just that I dont find people thinking the same way I do. Its hard to describe. Like today I got pissed about somthing I dont feel like mentioning, and then I started thinking about human relationships, and thought that they really are the ultimate self indulgence and increase of our vanity. I mean when you even just have a conversation with someone you think that they want too hear you but how do you know? You dont but you vainly decide they do just because they seem to be looking in your direction and listening. That and how there are no numbers. Thats an abstract one. Well I guess what Im asking is it normal for me to think all different like and not care about what everyone else seems to care about. I know im not gay. Just stupid I guess. Ive thought about alot of other things on society and the way our American culture works. Ive found I dont like it at all. I love America I just feel that weve come to a point that anything produced to the public in mass becomes a recognized idea and then a sterotype or cliche, I mean everything. Hemmingway wouldnt have lasted, he kept writing about WW1 and all that (Old Man and The Sea aside!) People today would just sort of explore him and say "Oh ok..." and act as though they dont know whats going on. Lest alot of the people I see. Its wat your supposed to do. I mean its down to that level where we have preset reactions to certain imputs. If somone says something confusing they dont try to understand they just laugh or somthing. Our culture promotes relative ignorance and sex worship. Im not a prude but sexuality is held above all other things. Its stuff like that I think about. As you can see I find it hard to explain but it makes sense when I think of it. Idk if thats why I havent hadnt any girlfriends or anything. Hell you guys will prob give me a load of shit because of how long this is. Bah!