i know there is somthing wrong with me. i want to be a psychiatrist when i grow up but i really think im crazy. i know i will never do it but i have thoughts or suicide. i dont know what im going to do.
Don't kill yourself. Also don't turn into Hannibal Lector, he was a psychiatrist. Today I had a strong urge to jump off the fourth floor of my school. I knew I wasn't going to do it, but I had some sort of panic attack. I kept thinking I have to jump off. I just held back the thoughts and walked away to my next class. Perhaps you have some kind of anxiety like me, I don't know, I'm no doctor. Or if you're depressed get help if you want.
I think the idea you have that you could be mad actually proves that you are in fact quite sane. By definition 'crazy' people dont honestly know that they are crazy, thinking their behaviour is completely rational. Only the people aropund them know something is not quite right with them. As for the suicide thingy i get that all the time and i'm now 38, so i wouldnt act on it just yet!