I really think you try too hard to be something you're not. Different can be a good thing. Just be yourself. If reality gets too bad, detach yourself from it. Try meditation, or lock yourself in a dark closet for a couple days with no food or water. You'll come out with a new understanding of reality. And if your friend is a dick, why are you still friends?

Find new friends, this will be difficult considering your self-esteem issues, but you just need to take a deep breath and go talk to people. Don't worry about rejection, just be yourself, sooner or later you'll find someone who likes you for who you are.

Ok listen up, YOU have the power to change all this..."Smile and the whole world will smile with you" Go out and get yourself some speech therapy if it bothers you that much, Go out and get some councilling, if you need the money try getting a little part time job. where you will meet new MORE GROWN UP people who will accept you and not make fun of you this will give you confidence and maybe show your mother and father a different side to you. As for the girl online no it isnt stupid, get her number, start texting eachother see how it goes...Why not get more internet friends it will make you feel better about yourself. You wont feel so alone. you can get yourself out of this it may not be easy but you can i promise ya. Just need to get yourself moving. i recommend www.there4me.com they help with all sorts of problems and as for careeas ...there are plenty of websites you can find jobs on connexions or jobs-uk (sorry if your not in the uk) this will help you move forward and be happy. also you might want to try www.teenchat.com to make some new friends and not be so alone. once you get a job you will be able to make new friends and begin to form a social life. please dont feel suicidal if you are desperate pls take my advice and work on your life. good luck xx

Keep looking inside for the answers. You must have some self esteem because you are aware of you problems and you want to make your life better. You have to trust what you think is best for you such as counselling and finding new friends. One thing I would suggest is finding a place to be alone once in a while to practice speaking. It may seem weird but it will build confidence.

thanks for the comments all, i'll take all of em into account. im better now, and my only friend he aint no dick i realized. in fact hes probally the main reason im still alive, at the moment i was depressed but he deserves the respect of a good man which he is. again thanks for the comments all, im much better now.

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i think that you shouldn't try tokill your self because its not good for you i know at the moment it's the only thing that feels right but it's not okay i've thought about it because i used to cut but ive been clean for about 1 month and i know what your going through but if you need some one to talk to just talk to me hears my e-mail cnncervantes@yahoo.com so talk to me !!!!!

I don't think you are suicidal but that you have fancied the idea because it could make sense in your situation. But thats where you have to recognize something. You have a life of your own which includes your likes and dislikes that you havn't completely developed yet. You have a lot to look forward to although you just don't know it. So try to be optimistic. About your speech problem, its tough. People will notice it before they notice anything else about you. If you let them judge you quickly, then you are subjected to be defined by your speech problem. Be confident, strong, and happy by choice and be defined by "what" you are made of in your personality, choices-actions, and values.

Dont let other people get in your way man. Suicide aint the answer.

If at anytime you feel like you have had enough of everything and no place to turn for help, please, please, call this phone line in the USA:

1-800-SUICIDE
1-800-784-2433

There are always people to help out no matter what the issue, you just have to know where to turn and I have provided it in this case. It is a sign of strength, not weakness when people hurting are courageous enough and strong enough to get help when they need it.

Please mark down this number and realize you have a place to go if things turn out not well.

My best to you. I wish you happiness.

You are completely normal, pretty much every teenager is very depressed and suicidle at some point. But your life does sound really bad. And God can hear you. Just because when you pray He doesn't answer in a way that you expect doesn't mean he cant hear you or he's not listening. If you keep praying and you believe and trust in him he will answer you. If i were you i would try to rebuild your relationship with your parents, even if its hard just try to see the good qualities in them and yourself. You could try joining a youth club to find some new friends or join a few chat rooms (face party or myspace) just dont be afraid of your real self if you know what i mean.

I hope things get better for you.

u honeslty should try conselling
for some it works and for some it doesnt
but whats there to lose?
there are alot of good ppl out there and all u need to do is be open with them
be nice and stuff and then ull make better friends..alot of ppl feel this way so i wud consider the way u feel normal considering the situatin.

Hi there, it brings a tear to my eyes when I read your post. Please dont commit suicide, if you can bring yourself to live through these bad times then you will come out the other end a much stronger and happier person. Think of it this way, things cant get any worse they can only get better, you have reached the bottom so the only way now is back up again. Many of us feel like our lives have no structure and that the people in our families let us down, i have been there but you are stronger than this, look for a speech therapist on the internet in your area, see if you can get referred to one through your doctor maybe, if your parents dont like it you will have to do this alone. Yes go and get yourself counselling and if your parents keep saying no, you will have to be brave and go it alone, think of yourself first, dont worry about the others, did they care for you when you felt down, no, well go it alone mate. get yourself on the road to recovery again. In years to come you will find yourself a lovely young woman who will become your wife and you will have children and then you can give them all the love and support you missed out on. Hang in their please, dont give up..

to slove your problem you need two things
* a bullet
* a gun
Load..pull trigger see how easy that was?
Seee you in hell

dont be an idiot! people have it worse out there you know! i understand why you would feel this way but serisouly mate grow the fuck up! your nuts thats why your mum wanted you to be homeschooled because shes ashamed off you!!!!

Ignore the assholes on this site, even though they have their moments.

You will get out of this rut. At 16 you are still young, and good things most likely will happen. Stick it out. Get a good job. Get the fuck out of dull little bubble. Maybe your life seems dull and meaningless now, but there is a whole world out there that you hav yet to see.

Wait out the next 2 years and then move on, all i gotta say!