Wrong?
I've always felt a sort of distrust with humanity, and lately I've begun to flat out hate people. To the point where when this gets me down, I read obituaries to make myself feel better.
I'm not gothic or emo or anything, I'm not seriously depressed. I just feel a deep hatred for people and honestly I feel elated when I hear of morons and others who have died. I can find no good qualities on almost anyone, my family drives me crazy and I don't think I even love them.
Lately I've found myself wishing I was--more or less--a sociopath who could manipulate people with ease and feel no emotion for them. I've tried to push all emotion out of my mind because I feel such a deep seated hatred for people, I hate it when I feel sympathy for someone or something. I wish I simply felt a dull apathy for humanity, rather than the anger I do now.
What do you think?
I guess you could just hate people. People are deceitful, self-centered, insencere, greedy, and almost all negative qualities in the english language can be ascribed to someone.
Maybe you have not seen enough good in people to satisfy your skeptisism about humanity. I must say that this site is not a good place to get a feel for how people are in general. The internet is generally a annonymous forum for people who need to release frustration with their lives in ways they would generally never do in real life. This does not mean that they are bad people, they probably have bent up frustration.
I think you should accept that you generally don't like people, and instead of spending your energy trying not to be angry, search for the people who you think have redeeming qualities. Its ok to hate people's qualities, but you will only hate them more if you end up in jail or an institution because you have acted on what you percieve to be hate.
we need to start planning now. I shall be waiting.
P>S> Don't jerk me around neither.
cabinet70: I'm not angry at the sad things, but that I can't escape being saddened by them. This is why I wished I just felt more apathetic, akin to that of a sociopath. My main soft spot is animals, it hurts like hell to see a dog being abused by his/her owner, etc. I wish I wasn't affected by this, because it hurts. Nonetheless, my hate for humanity still stays.
Shavemeslowly: They do, but the problem is that I find it hard to cope with.
METHOSjr.: Okay.
smithee: Why the hell even post if you don't care?
love,
METHOS
i used to be a very hateful person
i never felt sorry for anyone i laughed other peoples pain i felt that they probaly deserved it
i did not give a rats ass about anyone
i felt very hateful
i felt angry
i loved that feeling of anger
i liked my hate
fast forward
i started taking some medicine
lexapro
it felt so damned wierd at first
i did not like it
i was used to feeling things being angry agravated
it felt like i was getting angry but i could not feel the emotion itself
i was encouraged to stay on it give it a try
i did i stayed on it for a couple of years
now i am nothing
i learned not to be so angry hateful
things rolled off my back so easily
i was numbed out
now i am off
things roll off my back and what not
but i feel different very different
i miss the anger i kinda miss who i was
at first when i was angry i liked it then i did not like being angry i wanted to change
now i kinda miss it go figure
maybe you like being angry?
maybe it is your comfort?
Take this for what it's worth ok? but sometimes the worst thing for the hate is being on or having anything to do with the internet because if there's a group of people who should die it's them. sorry but I get like you a little too. Take care ok?
p.s. stay away from the news shows. that stuff always pisses me off