Hi there, It sounds to me as though you have maybe been through a tuff time in your life, maybe while growing up and this has left you feeling insecure maybe. People do talk about other people thats human nature but you must think of it this way, as long as you are a good person and haven't done any wrong to no one let them talk, they will soon get bored and talk about someone esle, its life, dont give them anything to feed off. Focus on getting your life together and getting on, if people have a problem with you they are the sad ones, hope this helps.
i also talked aboutyou i think its because you tuch youre self at night which means god hates you. but seriously i think you hace a mentalisorder or you are really bord and madethat up.