How Can I Forget

When I and my boyfriend took a break. He met this girl online and they went out. It was hard for me to accept from what was happened before. Everyday she called him in the morning talked sweet then he woke up and got ready to go to work. He used to call me on his break time or lunch but then I didn't see him called me anymore. He even lied to me that he went to exercise. When he picked me up at work. He looked very tired and sleepy. I knew that he had sex with her but I tried to think that he won't do that to me. Same night I tested him to see if he wanted to have s*x with me but he said he really tired. So I found out that he had condom in his jacket and they did had sex. It hurted me so bad and I really wanted to die. I told him that I will die for him. She knows that he lived in the same house with me. She called him eventhough she knew I was there. My heart died. I can only cried and can't do anything. They knew each other not even 2 weeks. How can they had sex. I knew him for 7 years. Whatever he did to that girl, he never do it to me. I feel that I'm a long time gf for him and he needs someone new for a new feeling. Been through all that pain and now we're married. When I had s*x with him. My mind just pop up that story and I got turned off. He didn't know that I still remember it and still hurt. Now when I see him talks to another girls. I find myself that I am really angry and I can't stop it. I don't talk to him for a few days. I go sleep early.
Is it normal to still think about it?

Do you think it's normal?

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