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I am not obese, bulimic, or anorexic. I'm actually a very average body size, as you can see by my picture. However, I think about food the way a crazed alcoholic or drug-addict thinks about their prospective substances. I've always had this problem, and what makes it worse is that most people's addictions can be stop via QUITTING, but I can't quit food completely! I need it to survive, obviously. It's bad though: I dream about it almost every night, that I'm eating WHATEVER I want and as much of it as I want. I think about it non-stop, every waking hour as well. I eat a healthful diet, and have to force myself to binge on vegetables instead of all the other tempting unhealthful foods. And when I eat the vegetables, I PILE them on my TWO plates, so I can feel satisfied knowing that I'm eating a lot of something. In the past I have binged on many other things--Hostess products, anything sweet, bread, pasta, anybody's leftovers, seriously, you name it. I know I have a problem, and so I have a hell of a time controlling it by constantly dieting, and although i keep my weight down, I am MISERABLE. You have no idea. Everyone in my family and my fiancee know that I can literally go crazy over food or lack of it. I can eat a whole pizza. Large. With bacon, anchovies, green and black olives, extra cheese, pepperoni, etc...All the horrible things in life. I can eat an entire bag of chips and I will. I can 'out-eat' any man or woman I know. I don't know what to do. I actually base my life around eating. WHILE I'm eating a meal, I'm already thinking about my next several meals and I get excited about what I'm going to have. I get VERY angry when someone keeps food from me or if I can't get food when I need/want it. I hate cafeterias and buffets because many other people are eating what is basically MY food. i know it's crazy. I should be obese. What the heck do I do? Does ANYone else have this problem??