Sleeping Wife Exposed
First, a little back ground info. I started taking pictures of her sleeping exposed (she would never pose naked) when we were in high school. There were not too many opportunities, but I still managed to get some shots of her naked. I wanted to have something to remember her by if we ever broke up.
In college, she spent the night at my place about 3 times a week. I got quite a large number of pictures during this period.
One night after we had sex, she fell asleep spread eagle on her back on top of the covers and the lights were on. I was still awake when I heard one of my roommates come home (I had two roommates, one of which shared my room). I guess I just wanted to see what he would do, so I pretended to be asleep as well. He came into the room, right up to the bed and took a good long look. After several minutes, he left. Not long after that, my other roommate came home and they both came for a good long close look. After a while, they left.
I was quite excited by this, and showed her off to them on a regular basis after that. We still see them both on a regular basis, and to this day neither one ever said a word.
After college, we got married. I no longer had a live audience, so I turned to exposing her on the internet. I hunt for sites that post viewers amateur/voyeur pictures. I've posted her on dozens of sites, even posting graphic closeups. I never blur her face because that would somehow ruin it for me. I like to read the comments that guys make about her pictures.
She has no idea about any of this. I already know I'm a jerk for doing it. My questions are:
1. Why would other guys seeing my wife naked excite me?
2. How common is this?
3. Do most guys want to take naked pictures of thier girl? Is it a fantasy they just don't act on? I know its wrong, yet I continue to take naked pictures of her when she is unaware (sleeping/shower/changing). Based on the number of photos like mine on the internet, I'm not the only one.
4. I have dreams about exposing her to guys while we are out in public. What does this mean?
5. Why can't I stop? I have a ton of pictures already, yet I keep taking more. I've posted her on dozens of porn sites, yet I hunt for more. Why would I not want to blur her face before I post them?
Just because she is your wife does not give you an ownership; this is not like showing off your new toy to your friends. You are violating her and I hope she finds out and goes all 'Lorena Bobbitt' on you. You may be able to wriggle your way out of it with a good excuse; remember though, talk is cheap, but then again so are you.
It's up to her who she wants to see her naked. If she wanted the world to know she would post these pictures herself, she doesn't need a creepy little moron like you doing it for her.
Your wife is not innocent as some here may want to make it seem. She slept with you in your bedroom shared by another man over and over again before you were married. She must not be very guarded or careful. Still you should have told her what you are doing.
My advice would be to go back to the beginning of your relationship and acknowledge that it just started out pretty much wrong and out of control. It's probably the reason it is out of control today.