Randomly thought I could be gay
I am currently 19, and have never had any gay thoughts at all. I played football in highschool and showered with my team mates, never felt excited or anything. Now that I hear a lot about gay people on the news and what gay people think like, I have had a weird thought that I might be gay... I never dated a lot because I am extremely shy around girls and don't have the balls to ask them out, which kind of made me wonder about myself. I was kind of a porn addict through high school, then I randomly stopped because all I could think about was sex. Is it normal for me to wonder about myself like this?
when i am busy i dont really think about it. earlier i was playing in an IM basketball tournament with my frat brothers and it never really bothered me until i reminded myself of it once. just this last week i was moderately drunk at my frat house, and i was talking with this girl and i had the sudden urge to fuck the shit out of her, which happens most of the time when i get into a convo with a girl while drunk. i guess it could be determined: hetero while drunk, so hetero while not.
about thinking about it every day, before i had these thoughts i had a problem with panic attacks. all day long id fear having a heart attack, and was convinced i had heart diease or something. every since i got this thought of being gay, i have never been bothered by heart attacks or being sick. coincidence?
BabyArm!
Read the article "I think it moved" at http://www.ocdonline.com/articlephillipson7.php. It explains gay OCD. Our society is so homophobic, it's causing people to freak out about whether they're gay or not. The more you question it, the worse it will be, because it's an unanswerable question, since sexuality is a continuum.
The cure is to just not care about your orientation. if you have a gay thought, so what, who cares. If you obsess about it, you'll just have more gay thoughts.
bunch of emos!
ccc... but you're not a lost cause yet... just think about sweet hot pussy, and some bouncy boobs... how can you resist those
and for your sake, stop listening to this emos