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Want to die, but afraid of death
I know that sounds stupid, but that's how I feel. If only I knew for sure what happens after we die, then I wouldn't have such a hard time with this. My life really sucks, and it's gonna get much worse. Why should anyone try to stop me from killing myself if that's what I really want to do? Nothing in my life is going right, and I feel completely hopeless. I want to talk to someone about this, but I don't want them to call the cops or try to get me committed. I just don't know what else to do. I'm not benefiting anyone by being here anyways, so what's the point? I don't have a wife/girlfriend or kids. And I don't really like my family. I only have about 5 true friends. I haven't done anything worth mentioning. I haven't really contributed to the world. I really don't see the point of going on, but fear of the unknown is what is stopping me from killing myself. Okay I've rambled on enough. Sorry.
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Comments (31)
How old are you? If you are a teenager or a young adult feeling this way is common, but still dangerous. Seek out help.
If you feel as bad as you sound, you may need some medication or therapy, but I am sure you know that already.
If life really is as meaningless as it sounds, then why kill yourself? stick around, be amused, kick a pidgeon, spit in that nasty guy's book. Sadness is not worth giving up life.
Agreed totally with shavemeslowly
call a suicide hotline
I am 28 years old. I'm not going to kill myself, but I don't want to live either. I don't know if there is a heaven or hell, but I don't want to take that chance finding out. That is the only thing stopping me. I don't want medication because I am drug and alcohol free and have been my entire life. I don't even take medicine. I lost my job, I had to dump my girlfriend because she was lying to me and possibly cheating on me, and I'm running out of money. If I don't find a job soon, I'm gonna end up homeless, because I won't be able to afford to pay my rent. I think I would be better off dead than homeless. Also, I don't want to talk to a complete stranger about my problem on the phone, so that is why I won't call a suicide hotline. It's easier to do this on here. Thanks for the advice so far though...
death just helps you destroy the pple who really love you. by killing yourself u are effectively telling them you hate them. do you want to do that?
What makes you happy? That is what you have to live for. Your life will get better. In the meantime keep up the job search and try to stay positive.
You all have been very helpful. Thank you. I called the suicide hotline, and spoke to this girl for a few hours. She made me feel better. I think I'll give life another chance.
Now go get a job it will keep your mind occupied on other things.
Hi there, nothing is worth commiting suicide for even being homeless is not worth taking your life over, im really sure that someone could help you out, have you checked out people looking for flatmates or room mates, im sure someone will help you, if you explain your predicament to someone about your job im sure they will help you out till you get on your feet. Their are kind nice people out there that will help you out. Have a look on the internet for people renting rooms or people looking for flat mates. The scariest thing is making the first move but once you get the ball rolling, things will start happening. Mske it happen for you, dont sit back and wait go out there and really sort this out. As for the ex girlfriend, let her go and put it down to a bad experience, put yourself first now and sort your life out, you are too important to die, I hope this helps..
You only get one chance at life and who nos what hapens when we die!
you have 2 grab every opportunity as it comes!

if yhoo think life is not worth living then you have not lived!
Get a job, find a girlfriend if not go 2 college and do a course!

theres far more 2 life than that! its just finding out what you really want out of life! x

Good Luck!

LuvLou_x
ok killing yourself is not they way out of your pain i mean yeah you can kill yourself but you will leave all your family and friends to be heartbroken.. killing yourself isnt just destroying your life its destroying others aswell there will be someone out there for you to have a family and settle down with i think your just giving up to soon!

build up your confidence find a job you like, i mean what happens if you try and commit suicide and you dont die but you paralized in half of your body so you dont really have another shot at it you can only sit in a wheelchair lonley staring at a wall thinking about how life would have been if you did what one girl was telling you to do on the internet..

well heres you shot.. you've only got one life.
Thanks for all the comments and advice. I'm no longer feeling that way (well at least for now). I have started a new business (www.aneedto.com) and am having much success with it and I have met a great girl. This time, I'm gonna be a little bit more careful and get to know her better first instead of rushing into something like I did with my last girlfriend. Things are going much better at the moment, but if starts getting bad again, I'll let you all know before I do anything stupid. Take care!
Good advice! I'm gonna drink and get drunk for the first time ever with the new girl that is in my life! I think it's fitting being that she is a virgin and wants me to be her first...
That last reply was to strangelad.
Just a comment about not wanting to take medications because you are drug/alcohol free? There is a HUGE difference in taking street drugs and taking a medication prescribed by a doctor. Mental Illness (& I'm not saying you are nutz!) is really no different from having a physical condition like diabetes or high blood pressure. Science has proven that some depression/mental illness is caused by a chemical problem in the body. Medication helps balance that and can make a big difference in how one feels. Glad you are doing better.
5 true friends is more than most of us have.
when your dying you only want to live, and its the most painful thing that can happen to you. DONT DO IT.
You know this is the first...HHHmmm maybe the only thing you have said that I actually agree with you on!

I was told a while back that if you think you have more than 4 or 5 friends you have no friends at all! I didn't understand that at first ut have come to realize it like this...say you think you have 10 to 15 friends problem is not all of them like each other so your time is spread thin between them. Eventually you find out that you are being talked about behind your back by those that you thought were your friends and you are forced to chose who you want to be with! when you do BANG now you are shund by all!
5 true friends!!?? What? I have never had that many friends, let alone true friends. Every true frien I have had has died in a car accident or from drugs (including my little brother). That web site business you have been sucked into is a con. I hope you didn't have to pay for it. Life is a precious, painful, pernicious, pile of stuff we just have to deal with. My stepdaughter just ran away from home and I don't know if she is dead or alive after 2 days. As Marvin the Paranoid Android said "Life, don't talk to me about life" "The first 10 million years were the worst, then the the next 10 million years were worse, after that I went into a bit of a decline" (Hitchhikers guide to the Galaxy - Douglas Adams)
@: Obadiah
You guys think that my having 5 true friends is ALOT? Wow, I guess my life isn't as bad as I thought!

What website business is a con? That is my own website that I built myself, and it is definitely NOT a con. I even have the paychecks on there to prove it. Check them out on the www.aneed2click.com page. And by the way, it cost me absolutely nothing. Please don't be negative about something you know nothing about and haven't tried for yourself. I'm trying to better my life, and don't need negativity. Thanks.

I'm sorry to hear about your stepdaughter. I hope she is okay.

Again, I want to thank those of you that have left me these encouraging comments. They have really helped me get by over these past several rough months.
GO TO CHURCH! LIFE CANT BE THAT BAD.. THINK ABOUT THE PEOPLE WHO ARE IN WORST SHAPE THAN YOU... I HAVE CANCER, MY LEG DONT BEND BECAUSE OF RADIATION, I AM A SENIOR IN HIGH SCHOOL AND DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO FOR A JOB, I ONLY HAVE A FEW FRIENDS, THEY USE ME FOR MY MONEY, AND MY FAMILY PISSES ME OFF, BUT HEY, IT COULD BE WORSE! GO TALK TO SOMEONE, AND GO TO CHURCH.. IT WILL HELP, PROMISE!
*Sigh* Hi, topic poster here...

People REALLY need to read my replies. I NO LONGER WANT TO DIE, PEOPLE! I really appreciate all the comments, but they are no longer necessary. If you really wanna help me out, visit my website, www.aneed2click.com. Thanks!
there is no point to life. just jump
My friend, marijuana is the answer that you seek.

Trust in the herb, and you will be saved.
try eating a tampon if u can do it then i no ull be happy i felt the same way as u did and i did it and now im happy just make sure its notr used
your desire to disappear to end must be greater than ur survival instict to conquer the fear of the unknown. its actually beautiful.. u get to decide when to put an en.d.. u havent decided the day of ur birth.. u didnt even get to choose ur name.. nevermind ur family/country..
even in the most developped challenging play station games they have the option to EXIT/QUIT game..
you have a chemical imbalance in your brain, a mental ilness to be more exact. its normal too feel this way when you are chmically imbalanced, depression is something that almost everyone has experienced to a certain extent. my own father experienced it for a whole summer without going to a doctor. once he went to the doctorthey proscribed him a mediacation which balances this imbalance in the brain. and he i happy now. I suggest you should do the same as he did, enjoy your life to the fullest because we dont know how good or bad the after life may be!
way to go. you have turned your life around and will probly do beter then 50% of the people in the world.
again i say way to go.u did a great thing u are my hero
as much as people are gonna hate me...maybe its time, it is for me...f**k this world enough is enough...people need to understand sometimes no feelingsat all are better than this feeling
NO I did not kill myself. And my website should be working just fine. Maybe the server was down for a bit or something.

Anyways, I am loving life now. I have found the girl of my dreams, and I have moved into a house instead of an apartment. I plan to get married in a few years if all goes well.
[i]as much as people are gonna hate me...maybe its time, it is for me...f**k this world enough is enough...people need to understand sometimes no feelingsat all are better than this feeling[/i]

I used to feel the same way, but I figure life is short enough, and no one really knows what happens when we die, so might as well make the best of it. Don't worry, your time to die will come soon enough, just like the rest of us. Just try to find something, ANYTHING that makes life worth living and focus on that. Your posting on here shows that you really haven't completely decided to do it yet, and that somewhere in the back of your mind you want help. I say think it over for awhile, maybe a year or so. I'm pretty sure you won't feel the same way by then.
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