Depress
I cry at least once a week or more..
In fact, I feel like crying almost all the time..
I feel so numb about everything, I have no interest in doing anything that I used to enjoy...and all my relationships were ruined because of the way I am. Sometimes I feel like hurting myself, sometimes I feel that I'm better off dead. I have nightmare from time to time and I just couldn't stop crying. When my bf was here, I was so happy, but now that he's gone (Long D), I feel like a part of me died. I'm becoming extremely needy and obsessive I am so afraid that one day he'll leave me because of this. I can't trust him no matter how much he promise me. I feel so much pain in my heart and sometimes I want to throw up. My parents irritate me and I get angry so easily. Before I met my bf I felt so lost with my life, just living it day by day without really knowing why I'm waking up...after I met him it was the best days of my life, I had never been happier...I feel so sick of the way I am..I try to be happier, I try to be stronger, but like now, I feel so sad I can't seem to see the light at the end of the tunnel.
Drugs help.
=]
pop a few ecstasy tablets.