errr ok, here's the thing. Whenever someone insults me - like makes fun of the way I act or speak, I always have thoughts of killing them. But not just killing them - brutally mutilating their bodies and stuff. I've gotten to the stage I've written a 'hit list' of all the people I wanna kill and now I've been seriously thinking about HOW I'm gonna kill them, like where and with what weapon. I dunno where I can buy a gun, but I've heard you can buy replica ones legally then someone can make them work for a fee.
Are these sorts of thoughts normal?? I seriusly think I'm gonna act on them one day.
I just did this today, and it got him to fuck off, cause he had been bothering me for weeks, and then he just slapped me all the sudden, so i grabbed his neck, squeezed, pulled, and yelled "DON'T EVER FUCKING TOUCH ME"
He didn't tell, and he has respected me for rest of the day.
btw, i was lucky not to get in trouble, so you might just wanna see a councilor.
Thats NOT NORMAL man,
i get picked on in school more then you can posibly imagen... i have gotten over it myself... just think. in 10 years you will never see them again.
I get those feelings, I get those thoughts, I get those fantasties, I even know how to do it, when to do it and how not to get into trouble for it too, but I never. ever. ever. act on them and never will.
Because there's one critical reason you're missing here, my friend...
Killing them teaches them nothing except how to die and that you killed them, but they're totally at shock that someone would kill them and they're going "why me?", they're not repenting. (Repenting means changing your ways of thinking, your attitude and actual feeling guilty/bad for what you did)
They're not apologizing to you for what they did. They don't even remember! They're still stuck on "Me, Myself and I" and even though you murdering them might make you feel better, it'll still make you feel empty inside.
What they said, what they did, what they will do, everyone has go go through it, everyone has to hear "You're stupid", everyone has to hear "you're a dumbshit", or "you should go kill yourself, you fat little bitch."
Some of us start hearing that shit when they're fairly too young to be hearing it. You can't escape it. You just either tell them to fuck off or ignore it because you're the one who knows it isn't true, whatever the hell they say or have said to you.
You don't even need to prove yourself to them, and if you slaughter them, you probably just made their point true about yourself.
I sincerely hope you're just blowing off steam on here or is this fake (not saying it is), but I can tell you, if you choose that path, your life will end in a bad way, because sooner or later you'll get sloppy about it and get caught.
Then you'll be in prison for 180 years and life without parol and you'll be raped every day of every month for every year until you die, and someone in there just might end you.
That's where you're heading. Find a different way to release your rage/stress/anger/hatred.
Good Luck.
P3@CE N LOVE
KEEP ON KILLIN >;)