First off i know this isn't normal i just need to see what others think. I am totally insane. I hate everything. My only hobbies are smoking pot and gambling. I gamble on anything an for insane amounts. I really no longer get any kicks out of gambling because money has lost all value to me. Losing 2K has the same feeling as winning 2k. I will bet on if the next car to come by is a certain color, sporting events I have no clue about, anything. Anyways I have been put into a psychiatric hostpital twice in my life both within the same year. I know one day im going to do something really bad like kill myself or go on a killing spree. Should i just institute myself.
am a bit broke at minute and girlfriend is getting a bit expensive
My suggestion is to go on a holiday. If your young, go backpacking around your country or overseas, or if a little older go overseas. This will take your mind off your problems and see life through other peoples eyes and you'll meet heaps of people you have things in common with. Other than those things you dont enjoy about yourself. Good luck