I am really really depressed
Ok, Im dragoon188, recently my parents (Who are divorced) have been being alot more hostile to each other than normal (they have always been asses to each other, getting at each other through me)
Recently, my mother commented on something about me being gay, so out of furry, I showed her my post "Here it is" Which is about my childhood from ages 3-11, in which i was an active bisexual.
I stopped her at a certain point, saying that this was all i wanted to tell her at this momnent (I stopped her somewhere around the part of the story of my 2nd lover)
I told her i wasn't ready for her to knwo the rest, and asked her to keep it to herself. I then exited out of the web browser, yet she was able to get back to this site, and find the story. She then went about printing up all my stories I have posted, the one where I come out and tell my story about my bisexuality, and more, which include Death of a newborn.
I have just discovered (5 min ago) that she did this, and stappled them all togeather. I am VERY pissed off, as it was in her bag that she takes to school (she is a teacher) I don't know who she has told, but i am almost positive she told her friends and such.
She just entered the room (5 sec ago) and i said "mom, i trusted you." and she said "you left it up" I said "no i didnt" she said "whatever, we will be talking about that later anyhow" (note she said this halfway angry)
I don't know what to do. I am very pissed, scared, sad, and not just by this. By other things she has done to me. I am seriously on the verge of killing myself. She is a terrible person.
She tells lies about my dad, and then wont let me see the truth that has been writing by a third party, about me!
I am very very very sad right now, and I need help. Please. somone help.
I do not know who else in your family you get along with. If you think you would like living with your father, and he would accept you in, then he is the only person who you could live with, without your mothers approval. That would take approaching him and some battling but could be done, even if it reverses a court order. Otherwise, it will be difficult to live with someone else without your mother's approval.
Realize also, your mother has the power to do a lot of things without your approval, being your guardian. It isn't necessarily fair, but she has the power to do so.
As far as what she does with the info you confided in her, consider it a learning experience. She may have invaded your privacy by printing out your posts, but up to now, she has not done anything with it, and hopefully will not distribute it. So, do not think the worst so fast.
She may be homophobic and not sure what to do. Hopefully, she will speak to someone who is educated who will persuade her to leave you as you are and not try to change you.
Post back anytime, I'm interested to know about your status. Please stop any thoughts of doing anything permanent. It may be a way to hurt others, but it is irreversible and counterproductive in the end. You will be around long after most middle age adults on earth. Things have a way of evening themselves out too. So... be patient!!!!!!!
She probably feels like she failed you some how, or is blaming your father for everything about you that she thinks isn't perfect. (I've had a friend in the same situation before, by the way)
Keep your head up, talk rationally with her, and explain to her that you're still the same person, you just have different ideas on how you want to live your life. And, most importantly . . .
LIVE your life. Don't give up just because it seems hard now. Everyone has a lot to offer in life, so don't take yours away so soon.
Your parents will come through for you. Keep faith.
I just found out, she has been reading, AND printing my stories for over a month and a half now....
Oh, and she was actually talking about me smoking when she said "we are gonna have a talk about this" turns out she thought I showed her the printed thing of SOMONE ELSES story, which she thought was my own, so I confessed to smoking, even though i regret it now. She doesn't care im bi, or atleast wont show it,
But still, I mean, CMON, by her thinking it was a different story, that shows how many she has printed (I've already found 5 stories of mine, and 3 that I replied to which she thought were mine) I have burned many, and also shredded, soaked, and flushed them.
But cmon, for oiver 1.5 months she has been PRINTING MY STORIES!!!!!!
im really oz but i dont wanna give the wrong advice-hope u sort it out
Thats all you need.
I appreciate the kindness you showed him.
James Twomey
http://www.mthope-eastside.com/blog/archives/000566.html
He was a good kid, I miss him alot. I've known him about seven years. He was my best friend's brother, but my friend as well. We watched tv and played video games & chess all the time. I remember Jeff had the habit of doing silly things that sometimes got annoying. He'd take jokes to the point when they got stale. We'd play Super Smash Bros together and he'd pause and scroll the camera to look at kirby's butt (or lack thereof.) I never laughed, but he found it hularious. But I never cared about how annoying he acted. I could always smile and forgive his nerdiness because he was so incredibly kind. Everyone in this world is so selfish that it sickens me, but Jeff was never like them. He never stopped giving people hugs, even on the last day I saw him.
Don't worry though, guys, it wasn't your fault. A person that Jeff never met could ever convince him to do what he did. If anything, you guys helped him to keep sane. Even the trolls with their random comments probably just reminded him how absurd it would be to commit suicide. If he were to have reached out to others in his last hour, I don't believe he would have done it.
But to answer your question, he got in trouble at school and was arrested. His mom took him home and he hung himself with his belt after she left.
We never knew about this site until after he died or that there was anything wrong with him. His mother kept all this information from us.
The day he got in trouble we we're suppose to be called first. The shcool never did because the secretary knew his mother so instead she had called her and no one else! His mother said horrible things to him at both the police station and most likely all the way home! The officer has told us a few things that she said while at the station. Though we can never know for sure what all was said or for how long or how much, I know it was bad. Then she just left him at home and went back to work so her boss wouldn't get mad. She never called us or his father to let us know what had happened because of this thing she has against his father and brother. The police left that to her! An unfortunate mistake for Jeff. If we had been called and told of him getting in trouble we could of been there for him and he might still be here today!
In the end Jeff never called us either! So even though I can blame the kid at school who told on him, the secretary who didn't follow the emergency sheet, the police who made him an example, and his very own mother who just couldn't let his father or brother have anymore contact with him; I am left with blaming Jeff himself. He was a super smart kid with the brightest future of anyone I've ever known, but he Killed himself over the silliest mistake that would of been a big laugh by now.
WE MISS HIM GREATLY! For those who responded to his blogs with good wishes and helpful advice I Thank You! For those who responded with hurtful comments and pointless BS I pity you because you must have your own problems and to make others feel bad is just a band aid to help yourselves feel better!
HoBoGod,
The last day we saw him (one day before everything went wrong) was the best day ever! We get to remember his smiling face, his laugh, and his hugs threw the car window, and his silly jokes! He was really happy just cause we stopped by! Yet, we'll never get to see that smiling face again or hear that laugh or those jokes, I really miss him, so does Legion!
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spam_javelin (8680) 2007-09-20 14:20:42 germans>adolf hitler
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stargirl (5057) 2007-09-20 14:21:19 @: spam_javelin
Adolf Hitler>madman
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Orochimaru (9975) 2007-09-20 14:56:02 Nazis'
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CabbyHubby2st (10646) 2007-09-20 16:13:19 @: Orochimaru
Nazis>Aryans
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nearly (10533) 2007-09-20 16:22:45 @: spam_javelin
I was going to post a load of abuse here since you and your idiot friend decided to lay waste to the previous one, but guess what, THAT would make me as SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD as you. So I will refrain
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slackjawedyokel (6678) 2007-09-20 16:47:19 what a bunch of geniuses we got in here.....all they can think of when germans are mentioned is hitler.you all need to get out more.1945 is over.move on.
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CabbyHubby2st (10646) 2007-09-20 16:57:15 @: slackjawedyokel
American>George Bush
Happy now Slackjawdyokel? Though I highly doubt you like it since you are a liberal. It's obviously 2007 right there.
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spam_javelin (8680) 2007-09-20 17:52:32 georgebush-hedgerow
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spam_javelin (8680) 2007-09-20 17:52:46 @: nearly
die bitch.
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nearly (10533) 2007-09-21 07:17:35 @: spam_javelin
hedgerow>birds
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stargirl (5057) 2007-09-21 07:46:56 @: slackjawedyokel
Slack,
In case you didn't notice, only one person related germany and hitler together.....not everyone did.
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Footfan_90 (10400) 2007-09-21 09:15:12 you guys are so bad at this lol, just stay on topic, not that i can talk
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stargirl (5057) 2007-09-21 09:18:00 @: Footfan_90
Talk>mouth
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stargirl (5057) 2007-09-21 09:24:02 @: Footfan_90
;)
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nearly (10533) 2007-09-21 09:24:32 @: stargirl
mouth>penis
pmsl
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spam_javelin (8680) 2007-09-21 14:16:18 penis>erection
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CabbyHubby2st (10646) 2007-09-21 18:01:18 @: spam_javelin
Erection>Hard
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gizzie56 (8681) 2007-09-21 18:03:02 @: CabbyHubby2st
Hard>rock
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Potato (7428) 2007-09-21 18:11:35 @: slackjawedyokel
Well, the holocaust is the only thing that has affacted my life and opinion of the entire country... X
rock> melodic
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spam_javelin (8680) 2007-09-21 22:17:11 @: Potato
melodic>sound
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claro666 (3773) 2007-09-22 01:09:39 sound>quief
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CabbyHubby2st (10646) 2007-09-22 01:20:02 @: claro666
quiet>peaceful
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Potato (7428) 2007-09-22 01:27:22 @: claro666
hehe I don't think it was a misspell XD
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spam_javelin (8680) 2007-09-22 07:20:30 @: CabbyHubby2st
peaceful>tranquility
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claro666 (3773) 2007-09-22 21:36:16 @: Potato
correct, it was quieF, you know a pussy fart!
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nearly (10533) 2007-09-23 12:14:42 tranquility > calm
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October (10003) 2007-09-23 12:19:47 Calm>Sleepy
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nearly (10533) 2007-09-23 18:11:36 @: October
sleepy>dreams
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spam_javelin (8680) 2007-09-23 18:37:39 dreams > nightmares
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Orochimaru (9975) 2007-09-23 18:38:12 @: spam_javelin
nightmares>tsukuyomi
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spam_javelin (8680) 2007-09-23 18:49:49 tsukuyomi > moon god
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nearly (10533) 2007-09-24 06:08:51 @: spam_javelin
moon god >monotheistic
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xxsugaxx (9937) 2007-09-24 06:15:31 @: nearly
monotheistic >god
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CabbyHubby2st (10646) 2007-09-24 06:21:44 @: xxsugaxx
God>Religion
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spam_javelin (8680) 2007-09-24 07:49:43 religion > war
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Warner4200 (10422) 2007-09-27 03:20:43 @: spam_javelin
war> bush
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CabbyHubby2st (10646) 2007-09-27 03:45:25 @: Warner4200
bush>Texas
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Footfan_90 (10400) 2007-09-27 05:19:56 @: CabbyHubby2st
Texas>Cowboys
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spam_javelin (8680) 2007-09-27 06:49:20 @: Footfan_90
Cowboys > Indians
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CabbyHubby2st (10646) 2007-09-27 06:56:52 @: spam_javelin
Indians>peace pipe
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:D ===U
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spam_javelin (8680) 2007-09-27 07:19:04 @: CabbyHubby2st
peace pipe > Paul Mc Cartney
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CabbyHubby2st (10646) 2007-09-27 07:42:05 Paul Mc Cartney>The Beatles
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Footfan_90 (10400) 2007-09-27 09:59:58 @: CabbyHubby2st
Beatles>Pepper
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stargirl (5057) 2007-09-27 10:14:46 @: Footfan_90
Pepper......Mill
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spam_javelin (8680) 2007-09-27 17:03:28 @: stargirl
Mill>wind
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Sprinkles (10609) 2007-09-27 19:01:09 @: spam_javelin
rain
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spam_javelin (8680) 2007-09-27 19:03:17 @: Sprinkles
Rain > wet
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Footfan_90 (10400) 2007-10-02 18:23:05 @: spam_javelin
wet>pussy
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Sprinkles (10609) 2007-10-02 18:35:15 @: Footfan_90
ha ha ha! Cock
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spam_javelin (8680) 2007-10-03 05:17:38 @: Footfan_90
pussy > The Sopranos
Pussy is a charactor in that show.
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Orochimaru (9975) 2007-10-03 11:56:54 @: spam_javelin
Pussy > man
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spam_javelin (8680) 2007-10-03 19:29:44 man > homo
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Orochimaru (9975) 2007-10-04 12:07:19 @: spam_javelin
homo > nearly (iknow u were thinking the same thing)
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spam_javelin (8680) 2007-10-04 12:17:39 @: Orochimaru
lol...
nearly > anal pains
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Orochimaru (9975) 2007-10-04 12:22:22 @: spam_javelin
anal pains > prostate exam
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spam_javelin (8680) 2007-10-04 12:46:44 @: Orochimaru
prostate examination > surgical glove
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Orochimaru (9975) 2007-10-04 12:47:31 surgical glove > fingers
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spam_javelin (8680) 2007-10-04 14:47:22 fingers > knuckles
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Sprinkles (10609) 2007-10-04 16:32:49 @: spam_javelin
fisting
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spam_javelin (8680) 2007-10-04 16:58:39 @: Sprinkles
Fisting > Sex
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gizzie56 (8681) 2007-10-04 19:53:42 @: spam_javelin
Sex>joyous
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CabbyHubby2st (10646) 2007-10-04 19:55:36 @: gizzie56
joyous>pleasure.
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gizzie56 (8681) 2007-10-04 20:04:47 @: CabbyHubby2st
pleasure>stimulation
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gizzie56 (8681) 2007-10-04 20:51:02 @: gizzie56
stimulation>massage
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spam_javelin (8680) 2007-10-05 10:11:17 @: gizzie56
massage > brothel
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Orochimaru (9975) 2007-10-08 13:01:59 @: spam_javelin
brothel > hoes
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