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i cant do this anymore

i seriously cant, i dont like my life i want it to end, and yes i am a "depressed young person" but dont go thinking this is one of those kids that are just going through that stage. ive been depressed as long as i can rememeber. ive taken beatings from my birth parents. ive been emotionally physically sexually and mentally abused all of them you name it. i hate myself for what i have done to other people like beating them up. Its seems as everything i do i seem to fuck it up no matter how hard ive tried. im empty all the time, i sleep all the time i hate going out i hate everything. i put a smile in front of everyone so they would just leave me alone. im fucked in the head and i have no one i mean no one to talk to this about. i dont trust counsellors because of a very personal reason i fucking hate them. after what that bastard did to me il never go back to couselling. i just cant do this anymore and i dont know what to do. i want it all to end. is this normal??
Do you think it's normal?
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Comments (12)
MightOfTheMass (6096)
2007-03-22 07:46:03
Perfectly normal if all those events have taken place in your life.

What did Mr Councillor do to upset you ?
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raydee (6505)
2007-03-22 08:18:43
Hey. I feel the exact same way. I can't relate too all of your situations, but I understand what your going through. #1 suicide is NOT the answer. You need 2 let some of that pain and frustration out. This is a very good start were people don't know you at all. Every one's hear for a reason. You have been through a lot of very unnecessary pain, but one day life will bring you all the pleasure you deserve. Don't give up. Be STRONG.
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kristina_696969 (6736)
2007-03-22 09:06:54
DON'T LET THE ACTIONS OF ONE COUNSELOR STOP YOU. There are many ggod people out there that can help you through the low times! ou just need to find them! It isn't going to be easy! And, remember death is pemenant your problems are temporary!!!
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boza-loyalist (6933)
2007-03-28 12:18:10
not all councillors are the same!!! go and talk 2 someone or jump off a bridge
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NiceGuy1 (8422)
2007-05-19 00:07:56
first, dont kill yourself....second email me at zimwon@aol.com...im not a counsellors i am a 17 year old who had the same problem a few years ago. if you dont trust me dont e-mail me but i promis me you wont kill yourself.
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Shavemeslowly (5177)
2007-05-19 01:02:08
You can live a new life as soon as you are legal age. You can get the fuck away from the people who have hurt you, and surround yourself with better people, because they ARE out there. There is always tomorow to be happier, and no one but yourself can keep you from geting to that point.
Don't kill yourself. Besides, we all end up dead anyway, so whats the rush.
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artosrex (8453)
2007-05-20 20:36:56
"Life's a bitch and then you die, so roll a joimt and let's get high!"

Sorry. Anyways, look at it like this, there's so many pleasures in life....weed, booze, chicks, sunshine, good food, fresh air, nice cars....OK, i'm rambling. Point is, you probably haven't experienced too many pleasures yet, but if you go out now ur wasting your chance to experience them. So you've had a crap life for your first few years, but if you die now u'll never have experienced anything but crap. What a waste.
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ruston (8396)
2007-05-29 15:01:28
I can seriously say I KNOW exactly how you feel.Every single word you've written I can relate to because I have walked through that HELL and continue to even to this very moment. I honestly don't have any advice to give you other than just hang in there and believe in prayer. I am not a very religious person by any means, but when I have cried out to GOD that I couldn't stand anymore of what this life was throwing at me...He has shown me that He will get me through the latest crisis somehow someway. I will pray that you will find peace and happiness that I'm sure you deserve. I'm sorry for everything that has happened to you. Just please don't give up. I would like to help you anyway i can so here's my e-mail address if you'd like to talk to someone your own age and can understand the Hell we've both been thru.....contact me at hbryant25@yahoo.com
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LFC_999 (8542)
2007-05-29 15:17:20
After going through what you have you will feel this way.
I can only sugest a book called a child called it there are three books in total and I think they will be good reading for you.
Please give this book a go.

thats all i can sugest and just try to be strong you can move out and have your own life!!!
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Mimir2 (3348)
2007-05-29 15:26:49
You desperately need someone to talk to.
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aperson (9713)
2007-08-14 18:32:55
i dont think that ive been abused, but i have felt everything that you described, esp the smiling to get people to fuck off i dont just distrust councilers but i have been able to trust maybe 3 people in my life and all but one of them are gone, and i have never said anything like this to people before and i have no idea why i am now because most of the people on this site seem to be bigoted and rude but i am so...im sorry for you i guess cuz i wouldnt want anyone else to feel like i do
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beefjerkybandit (3692)
2007-12-29 17:00:57
if you was going to KILL yourself you would have done it already you pickel headed pea brained fagot magot sack of shit
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