I want to be happy
I'm scared. I've never been so...unhappy in my entire life and every day I'm struggling to live. Basically, I'm throwing my life away. Hell I'm sixteen and my life is screwed up beyond repair. I don't know what to do anymore. whatever, this sounds stupid.
just relax, things will always change
Also, you should go slit your wrists
I don't listen to My Chemical Romance either so, suck it.
And the wrist thing? Yeah, no thanks.
But bear through the pain, even if you end up homeless and on the streets in the future the alternative is either burning in hell or being slowly eaten by maggots.
Talking helps.
What are your standards? What do you think you need to be happy? The first thing you need to do is figure out what would make you happy and where you got such an idea. If you just got it from someone else, or from seeing how everyone else is, it probably won't work for you. It is entirely possible to be perfectly happy without money, a good job, nice things, family, or friends. There is no standard of happiness, and there are no rules to it. Anyone who tells you different is just trying to control you for some reason.
Figure out what makes you happy. And don't feel bad about being happy so long as you don't physically hurt someone to get there. Everything else is fine. If they're disappointed, shocked, disown you, it doesn't matter. You can't control what other people think of you, and it is fruitless to try. Those who take their happiness from how others view them are the worst type of people anyway.