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Im a 15 year old girl. I have always been quite shy but since about 2 years ago i have become even more shy and i have really low self esteem. i find it really hard to talk to people and i dont like going out with friends or even going to school excurisons or anything, i hate myself and hate going out because i think i dont deserve to have as good time cos im so ugly and stupid and the bigget loser. i used to be really happy but now i just feel angry and sad all the time. my best friend is really popular and is always getting invited to parties and stuff, i always feel really jealous and possesive of her and dont speak to her if she hangs around with other people.. im waiting for the day when she ditches me but she still tells me im like her best friend. I look into the future and everything seems so bleak and i just dont know if i want to live anymore. i hate school and i hate being at home. my family is so f**ked up. i have cut myself twice but i dont think i would actaully go all the way. some days i feel better than others but i havent been trully happy in years. i dont believe in counsellors but i want to be happy again, the old me.
Do you think it's normal?
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itsalwaysfreakingnormal (7202)
2007-04-12 14:52:05
That kind of sucks.

Erm - don't cut. (Don't listen to My Chemical Romance)
You sound pretty stuck to me.

Wait for sisophous to leave a comment - he's good at these things.
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Mr.Amazing (7516)
2007-04-13 08:07:54
Its so weird how you described it because I have the exsact same situation, except i'm a 20 year old man, I don't consider myself that ugly though, actually i should be a model. but i havn't been happy since i was like 15. I don't hang out with people, i watch movies and wrestling and boxing and train in the gym. I havn't had a girl in a long time. Why don't we talk sometime :) About the shyness ,I use to be the shyest person you could ever imagine but i started to grow out of it a little by 16 or 17 and started to talk to people, but i still don't :( now its not because i'm shy. its just because everyones so fake these days and it pisses me off ,hard to find a real friend.
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ipod93 (1493)
2007-06-18 14:16:44
DON'T try concellors they have never helped. Self-esteem is a personal problem. You are most certainly NOT UGLY because modern standards of pretty are fuckin retared. I mean, how the fuck is Kate moss prety. She's a fuckin skank.

Soory, wanderd of from the point, but seriously, don't be so hard on yourself. What makes you think your ugly, what makes you think your a loser? Is their a reason bhind this?

I became a shy person when a girl said to a friend "oh your so pretty" and then turned to me and said, flatly "your not". Felt like i was physically punhed in the face. Cried at night and now i don't talk much. But i've realised this was one person and there's no reason to feel like this and have started to come back.
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indigo (11038)
2007-10-09 08:22:29
get into drugs, change your perspective
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detra (11492)
2007-11-01 23:52:10
you need to learn to love yourself. most people love themselves naturally but some dont love themselves naturally. you have to learn since it didnt come to you naturally. i wish you luck. take it as a challenge and change your life! and remember change comes with effort.
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Dopplegangaer (15383)
2008-07-27 14:25:25
Oh thats all part of growing up, you just need to learn to love urself
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