depression

I hope that you continue to adhere to God's vision for your soul and not consider these suicidal thoughts. You do understand that you are depressed and need to urgently seek counsel from someone who can help you get past these feelings. It would be very selfish to consider putting the cause of your death on someone else. And think of the domino effect of pain and sadness your own death would have on others. You appear to be a religious person; ask God for strength, direction, and peace. Talk to Him, seek professional counsel, get help please!

Yes you must seek help immediately!

If you carry on misspelling and using poor grammar your peers will think you are a total retard and disown you.

Forget about God, believing in something that doesn't exist is half your problem.

aren't you bitchen! Should my peers really care if my grammar and spelling aren't up to parr? I bet your's do. I'm sorry your life isn't as deep as you'd like it to be.

You have a chemical imbalance and it's not your fault. Even if your life was the epitome of what you view a perfect life to be, you would still not be happy.

Please seek help.

I've never understood the "god's vision" argument, surely if you kill yourself that is in god's vision too. Considering your posting on here and that your in your middle aged, and seem to have never even self harmed, you just want attention. Get yourself a girlfriend!

As long as you don't try to kill yourself...
But wouldn't your family miss you?

Do yourself a favor and get help. Nothing is worth killing yourself over!

sometimes i have the same thought but now that i have started writing everything in my poems (all of the pain i feel that kept me depressed)things have became lighter on me. maybe u should try writting a poem on how you feel. i hope it helps cause you shouldnt wast ur life when ur on this world for a reason...

If someone wants to kill themself, let them.

If you want to kill yourself, go ahead.

If it's against your religion, fuck it. Go ahead and be miserable.

I think is normal, but is not healthy, you must go with a therapist to get a medication or treatment. I had that problem, i am in a teraphy and think less about the problems or money, now i try to see every morning like a new oportunity to make changes to my life, and this is my hint, take a long long vacations in mexico virgin beaches. cheap, good people, and time to check our life.