I get pleasure from
holding my crap in, the sensation I get from feeling it in there makes me feel at peace with my self like the whole world is so much clearer. I will usually hold it in until I feel it going back and the feeling going away then I will stand up so gravity can take over and bring the feeling back. Then I will just walk around and lean on stuff enojoying my last feelings of pleasure before I retire to the toilet and regreatable sh*t it out. I do this every day and its really the only joy I get some days. Does anyone else experience this?
I can see why people would think your "activities" are strange, but I've actually heard of this before. Just watch out though, because excessively holding it in can lead to colon problems. You don't want to be forty years old and wearing a diaper, do you?