Your an idiot girl.

if your skitzo its a terrible ideia, i knew a guy who wsd skitzo and refused to take his meds and he smoke pot for a long time, and i can tell you it dident end well :s




Peace jah bless

I seriously doubt you have schizophrenia... I think you are just bored.

your perfectly normal. i would pursue a career in politics if i were you

you can't even spell it...do your fcukin homework.

acid is the shizzle fo rizzle bizzle.

haha hells yes it is!

There are dudes who will give you drugs in exchange for blowjobs and sex. Try it out.

Schizo and drugs dont work well... there is a dude I knew with that... holy shit was he screwed up!! First he said his bio mom has been dead for ten years...then i met her..she left and the next day he said the same story

Then he would flip out and throw shit and smash out the windows.. for no reason and without warning.

He made one of those paper chains.. but out of TP and wrappers, and put it around his room...
He would steal shit, have it in his hands, and say he didnt steal it.
I wonder what it would be like to be in that state of mind... to have reality facing you, but it doesnt exist.

I know what you mean.. I flp out all the time on my family n friends.. I break shit.. I have also pretty much knocked my whole entire wall out of my room from anger last night..

I have tried to kill my mom n my brother n a few friends.. it's just I can't control myself..

n a lot of the time I see shit that ian't there and I hear things that aren't there.. my councler told me that a lot of kids never wanna talk about it cuz people think there crazy but a lot of kids have this same problem..


with me I like to hurt myself cuz it's reminds me that I am alive.. but I won't kill myself.. It has been a thought SEVERAL times..


my only question is why are we here.. what pourpose do we have to live? why? ya know..


n when someone can give me a good explanition on that then I am going to contuine doing what I do.. I kind of have a death wish but yet I fear death.. I know wat a condergiction..


I have so many fucked up issues..



I can't stand the way I look, so every day I do all kinds of pills n shit to make me not eat.. n I know it hurts my body, but I don't care.. I lost 20lbs in a week.. so why stop?



but I have no more of the pills n no money.. so now i'm pawning off my shit to pay for it..


I hardley eat n when I do I can only eat 3 or so bites then I am full as fuck..




I have gotten better with my problems.. but it only makes others worse..




I am one fucked up person.. I have a lot of fucked up shit goin on in my life..




n I just wish it would all go away, so I can be free once again.. free with my fucking mental issues.. free with what I do.. free to move out again.. free do you understand?


I just want my life back!

To be honest, that does sound kinda fun.
Just as long as you don't get too fucked.

hey, xsuidicide

it sounds like your having a tough time couple things i wanted to say it may or may not help but first of all ill just say you need to know you are not alone, there are many people living in the world who suffer from mental illness but are too afraid to talk to anyone or get treatment.

as hard as it may be you need to really get in touch with reality, you need to be able to identify which thoughts are normal rational thoughts and which dont seem to make sense. you need to really work hard at identifying yourself with the rational side of life you are the "normal" person within that who you are you need to know that these strange depressing and wacked out thoughts and visions are not you they are not valid and they dont make sense the harder you work at this the easier it is to control your illness if you can always try and relate to what you truely know is right its going to reduce your chances of doing somthing really silly in a phycotic episode.. you need to focus on that rational thought and concentrate hard to fight the temptation.

you need to understand your illness and know that you didnt do anything wrong your not a social outkast and you didnt ask for this problem and this problem isnt you! .. it really is an illness, some chemicals in your brain out out of wack and they need to balanced with the appropriate meds.

dont be scared of the medication if you had a heart problem and the doctor prescribed you with heart meds youd take them with no hesitation, well you just have a brain problem and you need brain meds.

look im not going to be hypocritical because i have used my fair share of pills party drugs and escape routes i know how good they feel and i know exactly why you take them and im not going to lecture you on why you shouldnt id like to think you were smart enough to have already researched the risk involved. But i will say one thing dont beat yourself up over it, it is so common for mental health patients to self medicate pills and uppers ect work on the chemical pathways in your brain much the same way as prescriptive meds do .. so when a "normal" person take drugs they get all wacked out and shit and its good for a laugh but when people with mental illness take these drugs they feel normal, for possibly the first time in their lives or in a very long time they feel normal its because the drugs has evened out the chemicals in your brain. so its only natural that your going to want to continue to take them but the problems is they may level you out for the couples of day your high but each time you come down your dropping lower than where you started kinda like one step forward 3 steps backwards your gunna burn youself out man its not a safe long term option i know it feels good now an seems to be the logical option but if you stick it out stay off the street shit and follow a course of appropriate meds you will feel normal in no time it may take a little bit longer than poping an ekkie but its long term and sustainable.

By the way it sounds as though you want to loose weight and are taking advantage of the loss of appitite on drugs well just a word of warning even if you dont feel like eating try and eat tiny bits of food throughout the day even though its the last thing on your mind you need to do it you wont put on weight and it will stop your metabolism from going into shock even though you initially loose weight it fucks with your body and actaually ends up having the opposite affect you will soon start to bloat up

ok kid look after yourself life can be good, ive suffered and had alot of bullshit in my life but you cant dwell on it , work through it try and get some closure and as cliche as it sounds there is something for everyone out there hang in there try and cope with your problems and rest assure you will find out wat makes you happy and your place in life try and stay positive.

on the up side you can use this to your advantage. i think people who have lived through struggles and dark times eventually become better people with more to offer the world. at least you have learnt young that life can be stressful i feel bad for those preppy fucks who have never suffered in their lives never worried about money and never associated with real people they are missing out big time they are usually ugly on the inside and have no street smarts and neglected to learn the most basic lessons in life.