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A disease of isolation
I have a real problem. I'm 19 years old. I have no real friends that I hang out with. I'm always at home, alone. I go to university. All I do when I come home is watch television, go on the computer and study a little. The only times i go out is when I go to school. My weekends are spent alone in my room watching tv, surfing the internet, watching porn and studying when I have to.
This is even worse during the summer. I don't have a job so I do not work. May, June, July & August, 4 months of summer are spent indoors. My routine usually consists of sleeping in until 12 or 1 in the afternoon. After eating breakfast, I go on the computer then watch a little tv or play some video games til I have to go to sleep, which is usually at 2 in the morning. And this routine is repeated everyday for the entire summer! Now of course..sometimes i have relatives coming over...or I go to the supermarket..small stuff like that but most of my time is spent in my room all alone.
If I didn't have to go to school, this is what my entire life would be. Pretty sad and pathetic you must be thinking, yes it is. I've never made many friends in high school. I've never had much social experiences. I've never had a girlfriend, ect...
So why am I writing this? Well..maybe to see if anyone else has a similar experience and to seek advice. I don't know where to find friends. I've tried at university, but seems like everyone wants to stay friends as "school mates" and not more. I'm shy so I don't approach people often. I don't want to get a job because i'm lazy and also shy around people and don't want to work where there is interaction between large groups of people.
Now I'm a pretty normal guy. I can be funny at times and serious at times. Although I have been told I'm too serious sometimes. I like to crack jokes. Nothing is wrong with me. I'm 19, average height, average-looking, so it's not like there's something wrong with my physical appearance. I'm not dumb or mean or anything like that either. I'm an average guy. I like sports, going out to see movies, chilling, ect.. I don't do drugs or smoke.
I never really understood why I'm so lonely. Part of it is a lack of socializing in high school but there is more to it. Sometimes i feel it's simply bad luck. In the summers, I get so depressed that I start having suicidal thoughts and even sometimes I start crying at night.
My parents yell at me for not going outside and they yell at me for not getting a job like all other teenagers. I don't feel like working in a fast food restaurant. I'm afraid of going and applying for a job.
All I want is friends. A job, perhaps. A girlfriend. I don't want to spend the rest of my life alone. Not having a social life or not experiencing sex. I want to change, but I need help. I don't know where to start. I'm afraid this will eventually end up torturing myself to the point where I just decide to kill myself and end my misery.
This is even worse during the summer. I don't have a job so I do not work. May, June, July & August, 4 months of summer are spent indoors. My routine usually consists of sleeping in until 12 or 1 in the afternoon. After eating breakfast, I go on the computer then watch a little tv or play some video games til I have to go to sleep, which is usually at 2 in the morning. And this routine is repeated everyday for the entire summer! Now of course..sometimes i have relatives coming over...or I go to the supermarket..small stuff like that but most of my time is spent in my room all alone.
If I didn't have to go to school, this is what my entire life would be. Pretty sad and pathetic you must be thinking, yes it is. I've never made many friends in high school. I've never had much social experiences. I've never had a girlfriend, ect...
So why am I writing this? Well..maybe to see if anyone else has a similar experience and to seek advice. I don't know where to find friends. I've tried at university, but seems like everyone wants to stay friends as "school mates" and not more. I'm shy so I don't approach people often. I don't want to get a job because i'm lazy and also shy around people and don't want to work where there is interaction between large groups of people.
Now I'm a pretty normal guy. I can be funny at times and serious at times. Although I have been told I'm too serious sometimes. I like to crack jokes. Nothing is wrong with me. I'm 19, average height, average-looking, so it's not like there's something wrong with my physical appearance. I'm not dumb or mean or anything like that either. I'm an average guy. I like sports, going out to see movies, chilling, ect.. I don't do drugs or smoke.
I never really understood why I'm so lonely. Part of it is a lack of socializing in high school but there is more to it. Sometimes i feel it's simply bad luck. In the summers, I get so depressed that I start having suicidal thoughts and even sometimes I start crying at night.
My parents yell at me for not going outside and they yell at me for not getting a job like all other teenagers. I don't feel like working in a fast food restaurant. I'm afraid of going and applying for a job.
All I want is friends. A job, perhaps. A girlfriend. I don't want to spend the rest of my life alone. Not having a social life or not experiencing sex. I want to change, but I need help. I don't know where to start. I'm afraid this will eventually end up torturing myself to the point where I just decide to kill myself and end my misery.
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you might want to serch around about it and if you think you have it look for real help.
You must really think about something here, if you don't go get a job now and get used to being around people, and aquire people skills, how will you be successful in life? Most any career involves conversing with people on a day-to-day basis. You don't have to work at a fast food restaurant go work at a movie rental store, golf course, skating rink, electronics store, bookstore, video game store, porn shop. LOL. There are many possibilities and a great place to find friends is at a job. You should try working somewhere where you stock shelves like walmart. It isn't really that hard and you will meet a lot of guy friends and maybe even girls will notice you. =) Plus I don't know where your income comes from, but you should probably try to stop getting all your money from mom and dad. This is a part of growing up, you don't want to be a 40 year-old virgin living with mom and dad do you? Your parents probably should have tried to make you get a job at a much younger age. Good luck.
I'm similar to the guy who originally posted this, only... I average going out like once a week and only for a few hours.
It's come to the point where I became extremely overwhelmed and anxious trying to go out one day.
So now I'm seeing a counselor, I go out everyday now and am slowly trying to put my social life back together. This means I'm contacting old friends and family to make socializing a new normal for me.
Hope anyone who is going through isolation issues gets over whatever is keeping them away from people. Take care.
but i fell out with my bff and she turned all my m8s against me so i had a few left....then i had to move house so then i had none !! so now im scared to go out and because im ver chubby...i think people stare and me and think im extra ugly
i dont work...and im just like u !
solution. i got a job. meet friends and a nice girlfriend through work. its hard to get out and meet people when u have noone to hang with and nowhere to go.
so defiantly find a job and move on from there
It does suck doing the same things every single day, and not having someone to hold and all that... but once you do find that girl you'll treat her like she's a queen I'm sure