20 year old male
The other week, this guy put a gun in my face. He wanted my money. I gave him like $40 dollars I think.
After the initial shock of it all and after the police report and everything, I realized something bizarre. I didn't beg him not to shoot me. In fact, I felt complete apathy for everything in that moment. Like everything I had done in my life was for nothing and it would end just as my life was beginning. Instead of thinking, "Oh no I have so much to live for!" I was thinking, "My life was pointless." He didn't shoot me though.
My life didn't flash before my eyes or anything spectacular like that. I felt nothing. I guess I didn't have time to think about anything. I'm usually an up beat, glass half full kinda guy. So when this happened, I guess I became numb to the world. I think other people would have a new appreciation for life after staring death in the face, but not me.
Is that normal?
honeslty,that thing on "watching all your life in front of your eyes like a movie" seems like bullshit to me. i believe that if there is enough time to think anything at all, maybe one might remember the wife, kids, work, friends or stuff like that... but not like all your life in front of yourself
You can "hand out Beat-downs" then pleasure the chicks after the bludgening has ended.
Then i walked on a light pole.
Didnt change my perspective though.
but as far as what happened to you, alot of people dont realize that having a gun pointed at you can be a life changing experience. if it starts to effect your life, if you really feel changed, depressed, whatever, talk to someone about it.
The best anology I heard for Death was "Death is like the largest lotto and everyone's got a winning ticket." paraphrasing.
So the things you may have learned about yourself is that you shouldn't put all your eggs in your basket and that you're not an immortal being, we can all die very quickly anytime for any reason. I'm not saying dismiss what happened, but learn to accept that life can be very short lived.
I don't walk around constantly thinking on it (I enjoy life) and I do take smart procaution: Don't walk down allys or in bad areas, keep your house like a fortress and carry a big fucking gun, act like you're insane or very fucking mean. I carry pepper spray!
I keep aware of my area as I'm walking. I make senarios in my head if someone sticks a gun in my face, I'll shift my entire body to his side and grab the gun and break his arm, then shoot him in the knee cap (works with knives too, except you put your foot/knee in his balls or throw the knife into his eyes, and neck)
Read your law about self-defense, when it's legal to kill and when it's not.
Stick in highly public areas, lots of traffic, but keep your money away from pick-pockets or chain-drive wallet with secure clip (ones that are hard even for you to get off)
Learn Martial Arts.
Don't feel bad about feeling numb, at least you didn't go paranoid and become a recluse (I hope), some do that.
Good Luck!