Always want to smoke weed...

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I drank and smoked the herbs for 25 years and I have been in AA for the last 15 years and your story sounds like the begining of every addicts story I have ever heard. Unfortunately your just begining the road to hell. Every addict thinks there addiction is helping them.

Smoke a joint.

hey i know exactly how you feel! when i read your thing i felt like you were talking about me. and im sorry i dont have an answer either. it's probably to work on anxiety issues so that we can get to a point where we only use weed for recreation. but for now, feeling guilty about smoking is just another form of anxiety. remember that everyone is different and dont judge yourself so harshly. i mean drs prescribe all sorts of drugs for anxiety and depression, cannabis being one of them. i think the key is eventually learning to be happy and relaxed without it.

I have the same.. but still you shouldnt smoke so much, do it on a weekly basis, or like me on a monthly basis, so you dont get addicted

Your problem was the drink not the smoke. Your grouping them together as if they're in the same category. According to the CDC statistics alcohol-attributable deaths were 75,766 for the year 2001http://www.cdc.gov/mmwr/preview/mmwrhtml/mm5337a2.htm
Drugwarfacts.org actually lists alcohol as the third cause of annual death at an average of 85,000 per year. Marijuana is 0. The only times people had reportedly died while under the influence of marijuana is when used while under the influence of something else "An exhaustive search of the literature finds no credible reports of deaths induced by marijuana. The US Drug Abuse Warning Network (DAWN) records instances of drug mentions in medical examiners' reports, and though marijuana is mentioned, it is usually in combination with alcohol or other drugs. Marijuana alone has not been shown to cause an overdose death."--http://drugwarfacts.org/cms/?q=node/30
Your "road to hell" clearly started with alcohol. Alcohol has been proven time and time again that it's addictive to the point where chronic drinkers experience hallucinations and convulsions when you stop drinking. When you stop smoking pot, what happens? NOTHING! You go ah man, I wish I had some weed. Check your facts before demonizing something you know nothing about. I say that even though you claimed to have used marijuana for 25 years. You were too drunk to notice marijuana's true effects.

You should only smoke it on weekends. I used to do that, but eventually was doing it every night because I realised how much better everything was while I was on it. But in the end, drugs are bad, and no one should do them.

Gotta love the sweet cheebz but after a while you build up a tolerance and when you don't have it you get the worse anxiety and depression! I love it so much but fuck It makes me feel shit when i don't have it.

Before I read the last paragraph in your story, and I realize I'm about five months late, I decided I was going to write about how good pot made me feel and how I felt the same way......until I ran out.

I used to smoke all day every day, before work, at lunch, before class, before bed, wake and bake, all day. It was my life. Everything was, What can I do high today that will be fun? If I ran out of pot, I'd spend my whole day trying to get it. I could not be without it. If I wasn't high, I had no appetite, felt physically ill, and I didn't know what to do with myself. Don't get me wrong, I went to work, I did my work, I took good, organized notes in class, cleaned my apartment. I wasn't a slacker, just like you aren't. I had deep realizations about my life, mistakes I'd made, people I'd never appreciated before.

Then I got a job that I couldn't go to high. I'd feel sick and shaky at work, or twitchy and irritable and all I could think about was going home and hitting the bong. Or I'd avoid going to see my family because I couldn't go over there high. Eventually I realized that I had thought pot was such a great thing that made my life so much better but in reality, it had replaced everything else and become my life.

Also, like you, I have always had anxiety problems and pot just made all those slip away. But when I didn't smoke, I felt insecure, like I didn't have anything useful to say, or like my brain just didn't work as fast as other people's did. I used to be so quick witted and eventually I just felt like a dull, empty shell of a person.

Don't get me wrong, I still love pot. I love everything about it, the way it smells, the way it tastes, the way it makes me feel (while I'm high anyways). But I'm not a person who can smoke in moderation, so I just don't smoke at all. If it's in my house, I'll smoke all the time just like before. I quit smoking two years ago (and I literally felt sick and did not eat for three days) and had quit several times before that, but I still get really bad urges to smoke.


Anyways, my point is, take a good look at your life and what you want out of it and think about how pot REALLY affects you, rather than how you want to believe it does.