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Am I insane?
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I'm 19 and my dad died two years ago. It's well known in my family that he had schizophrenia. I also know that schizophrenia is genetic. After he died, a lot of my friends left me because I became depressed and a social outcast. But for the past year and a half, I have been talking to my stuffed rabbit. I talk to him about everything, and I hear him reply. I sleep with him, and keep him in my car when I go anywhere. But lately I've been hearing him when he's not next to me, like he'll talk to me from the other room. But we only ever talk about what happened in the day, or a movie or something like that. He's never told me to do anything. However, he "suggests" we do something like watch "his" favorite movie or show, or what to talk about. The only other thing like that is if I forgot where he is, we'll "play" Marco Polo. But I know, every time I hear him, that it's just my imagination.
I'm aware that his voice is in my head, but I was always told that if you are schizophrenic you don't realize that. Am I just trying to find a friend in him, or am I truly insane?
Thinking about this has really troubled me, and I would like some actual feedback.
(p.s. I'm too poor to afford any therapy, which is why I haven't gone yet)
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Comments (7)
Jim_Pfoss (19247)
2009-05-02 19:05:18
Assuming this is on the level,
Seems you know how to use a computer, so do some research on your disease. Schizophrenia is usually progressive and typically first presents in people your age.
You say you can't afford treatment. Can you afford not to get it?
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angel_of_chaos (23576)
2009-05-28 16:05:08
You may have schizoaffective disorder, schizophrenia, or another disorder. Please seek treatment; there are psychiatrists who charge on a sliding scale. Some may even see you free of charge. Call around and ask about their payment policies, you really should see someone.
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hallo101 (23660)
2009-05-30 21:26:36
this seems really serious. this may take some time, and yea there are free sesions
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bruhjay1 (24861)
2009-06-30 01:04:26
you are schizophrenic
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anxietyme (25669)
2009-07-17 00:24:11
I think this post is just to get a rise oughta people and not real.... But if I am wrong you really need to seek some help, be honest with your family and im sure they will help you get help.. good luck.
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elf_princess (26528)
2009-08-03 08:02:07
look here. may be it's just the result of your psycological trauma after your father's death? try to be with people as much as possible. do some sports. don't be alone. if everything is much serious (i'm sorry but i think it is), seek treatment. there are free sessions. you're a 19 year old clever young man. i'm sure you'll cope with it!! go - go!!
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Akerberus (27099)
2009-08-15 14:24:35
Well at this point you're not since you KNOW that he isn't real,however the line could start to blur very soon. I suggest you get some help very soon.
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