Hi I am a 20-year-old girl who has never had a boyfriend, never dated and has no actually experience with the opposite sex. I lost my virginity when 18 and drunk on holiday with friends. I felt disgusted and humiliated by myself for that and wish I had waited till I meet the right person to experience sex with, because of this I am so scared of what my future holds. I don’t want to be alone and have cats and not have children. This is even more because my friends have all had fruitful sex lives and had multiple boyfriends, when we go out no one seems to notice me however all my friends always seem to get the attention and (Pull) where I’m left standing there like a spare part.
I am now focused on my education and finish my degree and creating a good life for myself.
I am not particularly ugly or fat I’m only a size 10 and not fully comfortable with my sexuality. Throughout school I was bullied and did not fit in and had no friends and never experienced the same things has everyone else. Am I now to late is this what my life has in store for me? I just feel that men are repulsed by me and I don’t know why. I do not dress overtly sexual or procatly. I value my dignity and myself and do not want to give out to just anyone I want someone who respect me and is old fashioned. Do you have any advice for this lonely girl?
By dressing creatively and boldly, you'll be noticed more by men and women. It will help with confidence and guys will approach a confident girl who is standing on her own.
The other consideration is that maybe where you are going out really isn't your scene... maybe you rather pick up guys in a library, activity club, or online.
If you want something more specific lets see a pic :-)
So you - like most/many - have had bumps on the way: the bullying, sexual embarrassments, feeling left out or passed over. Really a lot of that's just growing up.
You are now a young woman with a young woman's aspirations. Not a teenager. Brush off the past as just experience. You are attaching way too much significance to it. Let it go.
Hold your head up & Mr Right will come along.