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Cutting

Okay, I have a cutting problem. The first time i cut myself it felt good, addicting, so i did it the next day. I promised i wouldn't do it again. But last night i did it again. I tend to snap at people, and get mad easily, then i go in my room, when i am depressed and do stupid sh*t. I have tried to commit suicide so many times. Im surprised im still alive. Pretty pathetic when you cant even kill yourself right?
anyways.
I dont know what to do. My mom said shes going to submit me into a heath facility if i dont stop. It just..It feels good after a rough day. ya know?
and i have a horrible past. I was sexually abused everyday for four years by my dad. Which has made me to become the person i am. I dont know what to do.

Help?
Thank you.
Courtney
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To fix you're Problem kill you're father for what he did if he's already dead kill a random person to lash out you're anger toward him.
well its not normal to cut but many ppl do it just find a new way to feel better or talk to some1 about it
I feel really bad for you.

Does your mom know what your dad did to you?

I would say you need to see a therapist and get on anti-depressants.
PS Your dad needs to be fucking castrated!
Yes, my mom knows. She dosnt know what to do though.

Thanks for the advice.
=)
Ah, where will that get me though? Prison? I think i'll pass, thank you though =)
I would go to the health thing. And the abuse your father did may be the cause. Therapy is the only solution....
Yeah, sorry. Disregard that statement. I just got a bit upset about what you wrote.

Hope everything works out for you.
Yeah.
He pissed me off though, saying im imagining things, and has the slightest nerve to tell my mom im just looking for attention.

Pisses me off.
But i think i will do okay.
I really need to stop with the cutting thing though.
Its nice to know somebody out there actually cares =)
thank you.
wat ur dad did to u is fucked up but that doesnt makevu tha person u will become u jus let that get tha best of u. insted of cuting ur self why not devote ur self to becoming someone that help stop shit like that from happening like a consler or somthin

Yea i know we all have rough days and all but i dont go around cutting my self, i roll a blut and smoke out and watch comedy central (which is not tha best thing ether but it doesnt threatin my life)

i know wat u went through
hurt by someone u loved
alone and confused
but there are people that care ur jus not lookin good enough

Sinserly, Luigi
I know. I need to stop.
your completely right.
thank you. =)
have a nice day :]
I may be the only one who has the balls (or the nerve) to say this, but if cutting keeps you alive in especially bad times, its a sacrifice worthy to take. Cutting and suicide are different things, I'm sure you know. If you feel suicidal, just be discreet and stay healthy.
@: Potato
Hey, welcome back Potato :)
@: Potato
Yes. :)
but im trying to stop.
It is not the problems we face, but how we choose to deal with them that make us who we are. It sounds like you have gone through some bad times and no one deserves that. You have to find a healthier way to deal with your emotions though. there is a website exactly like this for people who cut themselves and also for the friends and family of people who do. You can talk to other people who are in the same situation you are. Its like an online support group that can help you stop cutting. There are also some really good suggestions on that site to help you stop cutting as well. The link to the website is:

http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewforum.phpf=2&start=0&sid=d74ddd5fc393aa9051e3f26cf66aa68b

good luck and remember there will always be people who will care about you and love you for who you are. Screw the ones who don't because you don't need them in your life.
I can't say I fully understand the emotional struggle you're currently undergoing, but I do understand where you're coming from.

I was sexually abused by my brother when I was just hitting puberty. (Seems so long ago, now) The years following that revolved around insomnia and physical pain. It's been about 6-7 years since I stopped hurting myself, but I have to say that the abuse you endured and its effects will haunt you for many years, without help. Take your mother's offer for help. She might not know what to do, but professionals do. You are not alone in the way you feel.

As for motivation to stop injuring yourself....

I am not going to say I'm the most beautiful person in the world, but I would call myself average in appearance. I'm a fairly healthy person who eats well and exercises regularly. That being said, I have hundreds upon hundreds of scars on my body from my teenage years. (I happen to form keloids instead of regular scars) A healthy self-image is something most abuse victims have a VERY tough time achieving, and having constant reminders all over your body of the emotional struggles you've endured is not helpful in this regard.


Do yourself a favor, get help.

Quit marring your beautiful body. It's yours for life.