I cut myself, i am 13 years old (girl) i would feel badly bout myself and hate my mother and father and life, i feel like everything is going wrong im going gothic sorta n wear mostly black n dark make up i dont know what to do to turn back to my old self i used to be such a bright person but anymore im dark, is this normal, please comment, thank you
cutting won't get u n e where i learned that the hard way. But if you just talk or find something else to do like beat on a pillow or bite something it will help
It doesn't matter what they say about you
You're somebody, somebody fine
No matter how you tumble, and get up and stumble,
You're part of a Vision Devine.
As much as you hate conformist bastards and loathe your parents for ragging on you all the time, the world really isn't that dark.
Remember when you were bright and happy? Did you like Britney Spears? Did you listen to the Spice Girls or Backstreet Boys? Christina Aguilera? You're a media mirror, love. You do what you see all the time on television because that's what you've grown used to and that's what you feel comfortable with doing.
You may not agree with that, but hear me out. Do your parents tie you up in the basement and whip you? Then you shouldn't be contemplating suicide because of them. Back in the day when your dad beat you with the belt you took it and used it as life experience. Nowadays that isn't the case, and you can call your parents abusive if they slap your hand. Be thankful that you aren't half dead in a ditch somewhere and enjoy your life.
Why do you cut yourself? That would be with the intention to die, correct? Why not just throw yourself in front of a bus? Because your body won't let you, we all have a natural instinct of survival and you are no different. People on life support would be glad to have your life, dear. Anyone dying and appreciative of life can tell you all the reasons life is good. You have your health so you take it for granted. When you cut just too much one day, you will cry nd wonder why the fuck you started doing it to begin with. It's all about learning from mistakes and taking your knocks.
At your age I was playing outside and yelling at everything. Five years later nothing has changed. Get off the computer, stop watching television, and make a friend.
and as for you hating your parents.. you should change that, you only have one set of parents and you don't truly understand what they mean to you until they're gone.
if you are always feeling sad, and upset, you should see a doctor b/c you may be depressed. signs of depression are things like random crying, like for no reason.. things like that
i kinda know what you mean on this subject, my family wants to send me to the loony bin for some consuling b/c they think im depressed. me, ill stay in denile.. I AM NOT DEPRESSED.
dont label her she already has enough assfucks in her life
So maybe you cut because you believe that is what you are supposed to do to reflect the emotion you feel inside.
Or you could be cutting to relieve something emotional.
You decide which one you fit. Sometimes it is difficult to tell, and neither one makes you a bad person.
You cut for relief, for coping, for some kind of satisfaction? or you cut because it is an act so dark that it reflects and proves how conflicted you feel inside.
Either case, you must find alternatives. Rubber bands, ice, medication, therapy, whatever. You don't want to have kids one day and have them ask why you have scars on your body. It becomes embarassing and is a constant reminder of your instability, wich inhibits moving on after your emotions have long passed.
if you dont god is gonna bust his volanic load on your house
ps. im bi!
You need to talk to someone, or bring it to yourself to talk with someone, I know it's hard but that's dangerous.
Besides, if you change back, you'll love yourself alot more. Lucks.